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Race, Relationships, and Musical Influences of 1996...
« on: February 27, 2006, 02:28:22 AM »
I had enough of running wild/
I'm switching up my whole life style/
I don't want to live to the way I used to/
Was I song of Joe's I used to listen to/
Didn't realize it at the time/
Don't know why I was so blind/
But back then the girlfriend of mine/
Was a part of a culture that differed
from the one existing in my mind/
Cause while I'm listening to songs of Joe,
Jodeci, and then KC and Jo-Jo/
My girlfriend was getting prepared
to attend a college on the East Coast/
While I was dreaming of being a one woman man/
She was dreaming of joining a sororety in college
One day and living life like her mom had planned/
While I was ready to drop everything and live a life pure/
She was adapting to whatever the enviroment was at school/
While I was in my room bumping out songs by Pac and Nas/
She was listening to rock music and playing giutars/
The difference may seem small but in reality it was much bigger/
In highschool I was so into hip-hop they called me a wigger/
It didn't bother me because hip-hop was in my heart/
But you see to her this is a reason for us to stay apart/
I didn't know it at the time but the thoughts of Joe,
KC and Jo Joe, Nas and 2pac/
Were definitely not the influences that my peers had sought/
I internalized the messages in the music they were real to me/
But to others at my school they were just thugs and OG's/
So while I'm thinking in my mind about being intellectual like Malcolm X/
The rest of them was thinking intellect was only to pass the class/
While I was thinkin about changing my life and slowing it down/
They were waiting to go to college and get out of the house/
Cause it turns out she wasn't plannin on settlin down till she was 30/
And that's why today she is just a whore to me/
Cause see when I was 14 I was seeing bigger things for us/
I figured let's say "Fuck the World" like Pac and in her I could trust/
That all we needed was eachother, and we could grow together/
But she didn't give a damn about growth, to her it was no matter/
She was just trying to get good grades and get into a good college/
All my talk of 2pac and Malcolm to her was just a bunch of nonsense/
I guess I thought since the suburbs was buying hip-hop I was no different/
But I guess when they popped the albums in they weren't really listenin/
Cause my path in life has been so much different than those I was close to/
Back when I was 14 I guess I was more similar to them for a moment in time/
But, when I decided to change, their idea of success was different then mine/
I was searching for peace of mind and I was on the quest for the truth/
All they were trying to do was get drunk, maybe get fucked, and stay on top of school/
They wanted to go to college and make money so they could maintain that lifestyle/
When I thought acting wild and ignorant was just something for juveniles/
So when I was 14 I wanted better things, and I wanted my girlfriend to change with me/
Now I look back and I realize we were as different as the Backstreet Boys are to Jodeci/
To be honest I grew up with so many African American influences/
That my idea's of change were identified with Islamic institutions/
There idea of change must have been something like a youth group or church/
I never identified with that, and in it I never saw in worth/
Lookin back, why was I so different when we all grew up the same/
Why was I bumpin 2pac when they were bumpin Dave Mathews Band/
Why did I search for deeper truth when none of them really gave a damn/
Back then I couldn't understand why my girlfriend and I weren't connectin/
But now I know we were as different as night and day, why was a stressin?/
Cause I was the only one at the time around like this/
Now I know that there's another world outside of the world of young white kids/
Ofcourse at the time it was like we were all living in a bubble/
But for me outside influences still penetrated although muffled/
I was so young at the time I didn't realize the implications of what I was doing/
I just did what I loved, and anyone who didn't like it I said "screw them"
But deep down it hurt and I used to try to figure it all out/
But even my method of "figuring it out" meant writing all my thoughts down/
Those thoughts manifest into lyrics, my mental manifested into freestyles
Which only drove me even deeper into my problematic lifestyle/
Now I realize I didn't have the problem, it was only the perception of others/
Outside that bubble existed millions of like-minded people from various circles/
One commonality existed and that commonality was actually the influence of Islam/
So while it didn't don on me when I was 14, alot of rappers lyrics was influenced by Qu'ran/
So it turned out what was inside me all that time, was only a different religion/
A religion so deep in can release any incarcerated man from prison/
But this is another subject and another story, it's the Aftermath/
I was just trying to explain some emotions to myself that existed in my deep dark past/
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« Reply #1 on: February 27, 2006, 06:08:30 AM »
Pretty deep, I can relate to a lot of what you said...about both music and an ex-girlfriend who influenced me. Keep doing what you do, homie. That's some real shit - Peace*
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« Reply #2 on: February 27, 2006, 01:41:50 PM »
Pretty deep, I can relate to a lot of what you said...about both music and an ex-girlfriend who influenced me. Keep doing what you do, homie. That's some real shit - Peace*

Thanks for reading, and I'm glad you like it, I don't know how clear the message of this rhyme was but it was about how my girlfriend and I took two totally different paths in life, and how I thought her and I had this deep connection, and I thought that we were the same, but really her and I were totally different; and now it is clear that I am totally different from alot of the people I grew up with, but at the time I couldn't understand what was going on.  She inspired me to want to change my life, but my idea of changing my life was different than the conventional idea's from where I was raised, and ultimately it only meant that we were going to grow even further apart. 
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« Reply #3 on: February 27, 2006, 05:35:25 PM »
Thanks for reading, and I'm glad you like it, I don't know how clear the message of this rhyme was but it was about how my girlfriend and I took two totally different paths in life, and how I thought her and I had this deep connection, and I thought that we were the same, but really her and I were totally different; and now it is clear that I am totally different from alot of the people I grew up with, but at the time I couldn't understand what was going on.  She inspired me to want to change my life, but my idea of changing my life was different than the conventional idea's from where I was raised, and ultimately it only meant that we were going to grow even further apart. 
Probably sounds wierd coming from a complete stranger over the net, but I couldn't relate to that more. I went through the EXACT same thing not too long ago. Much respect and props for turning that situation into art. Keep doing what you feel is right, homes - Peace*
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« Reply #4 on: March 04, 2006, 06:21:28 AM »

Probably sounds wierd coming from a complete stranger over the net, but I couldn't relate to that more. I went through the EXACT same thing not too long ago. Much respect and props for turning that situation into art. Keep doing what you feel is right, homes - Peace*

^^Much props and respect!
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