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Hearing Eminem's new song "Bezerk" gave me that high I used to get every time I would hear a new song from him back in the day.   My life could not have been any worse at the time Eminem's "My Name Is" first came out.

People who lack insight, might have looked at me life on the outside and thought that it was okay.  Because I had money, suburbs, friends, athletic, my own and the typical things that teenagers are supposed to have to fit into the "American Dream" scenario.

But as Rumi writes (paraphrasing)

"Thirst and hunger are small worries,
for a thirst can be quenched
but it is the fear of hunger,
when one is full of stomach,
that can never be fulfilled."

Such a beautiful poem, that explains my life in those times.   How I interpret that poem and how it parallels my life is thus, when you are missing something obvious like food, it is not a serious problem.   For you know where to get food, and once you find it and eat you know you will feel better.   But if you have a full stomach, and still you are not satisfied, then this is a very serious problem.  Because what does one do then?

You see... A hex had been placed on me on August 22nd, 1996.  That was the day that my girlfriend, Ashley, moved away to live with her mom in Maryland.  (A couple weeks later, the greatest artist of all-time, 2pac, was murdered, btw)

It was during that time, that a Jinn placed a HEX on me.  A great HEX was put over my brain and body, making it impossible for me to think of anything other than my "Chakra".

My "chakra" started in my lower back on the 2nd Day of basketball tryouts freshman year.   I had had a sensational first day of tryouts.  I felt I had performed better than ever.  The coach brought me into the office on the 2nd Day and told me that at that point he had me down as the number 3 guard on the A team.   I felt I had given my best and still I was number 3.  I pushed myself so hard that day that I woke up the next morning with some lower back pain.  I took 4 advil to make the pain go away, and on Day 3 of tryouts I had another sensational day of practice.

But it was during those first 3 days of tryouts that I became acutely aware of my change in "Chakra".  See, my chakra during my youth had been on my inner arm and elbow.   It had given me pinpoint accuracy in throwing a baseball and in shooting a basketball.  

The "Chakra" during those years was sort of like a circular motion, like throwing a baseball, or like when Snoop and Kurupt would throw up the DPG sign  8)  Those were good years in my life.

But when the evil Jinn moved my "Chakra" moved from the lower part of my inner right arm and into my lower back, it placed a Hex over me.  For, every moving second I could think of nothing but my lower back, my pain.  I recall walking back and forth in my room at night to see if I could get myself to thinking of anything other than my "Chakra" (my lower back) while walking.  But the HEX could not be lifted.

The great HEX remained.  I was able to consciously move the HEX from my lower back to my leg, and then later to my foot.  This took the pressure off my back and allowed me to have a successful sophmore year of basketball.  But still, the HEX remained.  And every moving moment of my life, I was waking and chewing gum at the same time.  Meaning I was doing whatever I was doing and thinking of my "Chakra" at the same time.

Then Eminem came out with "My Name Is".  And the HEX was lifted.  His rhymes were a spell, that lifted the HEX from me, first through his words, and then through the art of imitation I was expressing myself and taking the excess weight off of my chakra.  

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Part 2:

There's a parable I heard once when I was traveling with a group of Sufi Muslims.  The parable goes like this...

Moses was sick.  So he prayed to God to cure him.  God responded to go to such and such tree, and there he would find the cure.  So he went to the tree and there he found the cure.  Some time passed and Moses got sick again.  So Moses went back to the tree, but this time the tree did not cure him.  He cried out to God "Why?".  God explained that the cure was never in the Tree.  The cure was in God, for God is the creator of all things.  So if you want anything you must ask of God first and God will provide the sustenance.

So although Em's music had cured me of the HEX, I had made a deal with the devil.  For I thought that it was Em and the music that had removed the HEX.  When in reality, it was Allah, because Allah is the creator of all things.  And Allah used Eminem as a means to lift the HEX upon me.

So I started following Allah.  But once again I made a mistake.  For I drowned myself so deeply into Allah, that I lost myself.  To the point that I had a spiritual breakdown while in the Emirates in 2007.

After that breakdown, I had to start my life over again from scratch.  Free of the HEX, I was able to look at myself for the first time without being overpowered by my CHAKRA.  In fact, my CHAKRA had been completely lifted so that I had no Chakra at all.  Not good Chakra or bad Chakra.

It was then that I got into individualist, Libertarian living.  I found the book by Harry Browne, How I Found Freedom In An Unfree World.   He taught about how we are always looking to other people and to something outside ourselves, when if we just take our eyes off of other entanglements, and look at ourselves and out situation, then acting alone, nobody can stop us from achieving our own freedom and happiness.

Slowly I developed positive Chakra, during 4 month long stays in Africa.   The positive Chakra now exists as a slow burn in my stomach, and it keeps me focused and moving forward.



  

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« Reply #1 on: August 28, 2013, 11:44:52 PM »
But it's wack tho
 

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« Reply #2 on: August 28, 2013, 11:50:34 PM »
how come the first single off every em album is trash?
show me where did i said i live in Poland
want me to show u? ok.....

ICHI, WHAT COUNTRY U FROM?
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« Reply #3 on: August 29, 2013, 03:05:30 AM »
how come the first single off every em album is trash?

Pressure to meet/exceed expectations, and label bullshit
 

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Re: Em's "Bezerk" makes me reflect into how Em's music has effected my life
« Reply #4 on: August 29, 2013, 07:53:22 AM »
how come the first single off every em album is trash?

because your trying to hard to prove your hip-hop fan of the year... and your afraid to say you like something that pop fans like... Either that or it's ahead of it's time and it takes you time to catch up.

but fuck that.  If it's dope it's dope.  And "My Name Is", "Real Slim Shady" were both great songs.  And "Bezerk" is also a great lead single. 
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Re: Em's "Bezerk" makes me reflect into how Em's music has effected my life
« Reply #5 on: August 29, 2013, 11:00:08 AM »
how come the first single off every em album is trash?


real slim shady was a classic tho


dope thread.. i like that quote about moses n shiet
 

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« Reply #6 on: August 29, 2013, 11:07:54 AM »
Yes the Moses story was potent.
Thanks for sharing that.
 

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« Reply #7 on: August 29, 2013, 11:10:18 AM »
holy shit man. im kinda at a loss for words here. you are seriously disturbed. you really still crying about your little teenage girlfriend from 17 years ago?

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« Reply #8 on: August 29, 2013, 11:17:35 AM »
Let go of the past, it's gone and no matter how wishful you are of the world returning that way, it's not going to.

I get the nostalgia of a new Em single from a new Em album when he was first out when you were growing up.

But let's call a spade a spade: this song is garbage. Further, as a supposed spiritual fella, it was composed by well known satanists and you are dousing your consciousness in it. Just an FYI.
 

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« Reply #9 on: August 29, 2013, 11:20:02 AM »
how come the first single off every em album is trash?

because your trying to hard to prove your hip-hop fan of the year... and your afraid to say you like something that pop fans like... Either that or it's ahead of it's time and it takes you time to catch up.
wait what? no wonder that bitch left you then.
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« Reply #10 on: August 29, 2013, 02:28:31 PM »
Let go of the past, it's gone and no matter how wishful you are of the world returning that way, it's not going to.


Your right.  When does the next 2 Chainz album drop?


I get the nostalgia of a new Em single from a new Em album when he was first out when you were growing up.

But let's call a spade a spade: this song is garbage. Further, as a supposed spiritual fella, it was composed by well known satanists and you are dousing your consciousness in it. Just an FYI.

That's not it, Trippa.  I call a spade a spade and that's why I don't bump most of these new school rappers that have came out over the last 10 years.   I still bump the 90's artists, the occasional new artist, and then have gotten into Reggae and 80's love songs to make up for what I'm missing.

I was the first to say that Encore was wack, that Relapse was wack, and that Recovery wasn't horrible but still a shadow of his former self.

This is sincere, that I really think this track "Bezerk" is the bomb shit!  Maybe the rest of the album will be wack, but "Bezerk" is on some next level shit.   As for Rubin being a Satanist, I don't pick up on that from this particular track, and I am only speaking specifically on "Bezerk"... who knows what will come of the album.
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« Reply #11 on: August 29, 2013, 03:25:19 PM »
U liked recovery more than relapse n encore??
 

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« Reply #12 on: August 29, 2013, 03:30:07 PM »
"all the best bands are affiliated with Satan" - bart simpson
 

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« Reply #13 on: August 29, 2013, 04:59:41 PM »
U liked recovery more than relapse n encore??

No.. it was just that the expectations had been lowered by the time Recovery came around.   Here's how I would put Em's albums in order (rating them in comparison to each other, with 0 being Eminem at his worst and 10 being flawless, perfection)...

1.  Marshall Mathers LP - 10 out of 10
2.  Eminem Show - 10 out of 10
3.  Slim Shady LP - 10 out of 10
4.  Encore - 4.5 out of 10
5.  Relapse - 1 out of 10  ("Beautiful", "De-Ja-Vu" and "Crack A Bottle" are the only reason I can't give this album a 0)
6.  Recovery - 2.5 out of 10
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"I didn't do nothing but make people money and I didn't leave nobody high and dry.  Any album (on death row) people are going to check for.  But it's time for Dre to worry about Dre.  I'm focused on the new Snoop Doggs, not like that but you know what I mean."

Dre -  Source 1996 cover

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« Reply #14 on: August 29, 2013, 05:10:17 PM »
I thought relapse was much better than recovery, if only for the production... But em was also spitting more raw then he did with recovery. That album was Eminem doin an impression of some1 else... At least with relapse he was doin an impression of his earlier self.,
 

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« Reply #15 on: August 29, 2013, 05:15:13 PM »
I thought relapse was much better than recovery, if only for the production... But em was also spitting more raw then he did with recovery. That album was Eminem doin an impression of some1 else... At least with relapse he was doin an impression of his earlier self.,

No way homie.. Relapse was the album with the gay accent.  Em was definitely someone else on that record, he was a Russian immigrant or something... I still don't get it
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« Reply #16 on: August 29, 2013, 05:16:42 PM »
the only good songs on Recovery were the 2 bonus tracks
 

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« Reply #17 on: August 30, 2013, 10:42:10 AM »
I still cannot comprehend how anyone in their right state of mind/spirit can listen to Eminem's voice without being filled with disgust/nausea.
The tonality of his voice is simply awful and he sounds like a castrated parrot on meth. I don't want that creature inside or anywhere near my mind.
But then again I am one of those sheep that prefer some Frederic Chopin or Eleni Karaindrou...




 

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« Reply #18 on: August 30, 2013, 12:17:06 PM »
I still cannot comprehend how anyone in their right state of mind/spirit can listen to Eminem's voice without being filled with disgust/nausea.
The tonality of his voice is simply awful and he sounds like a castrated parrot on meth. I don't want that creature inside or anywhere near my mind.
But then again I am one of those sheep that prefer some Frederic Chopin or Eleni Karaindrou...


I can understand if your talking about the second half of his career.  But certainly nothing wrong with his voice on albums like The Eminem Show
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« Reply #19 on: August 30, 2013, 02:32:22 PM »
I still cannot comprehend how anyone in their right state of mind/spirit can listen to Eminem's voice without being filled with disgust/nausea.
The tonality of his voice is simply awful and he sounds like a castrated parrot on meth. I don't want that creature inside or anywhere near my mind.
But then again I am one of those sheep that prefer some Frederic Chopin or Eleni Karaindrou...


I can understand if your talking about the second half of his career.  But certainly nothing wrong with his voice on albums like The Eminem Show

His voice has always been terrible (to me).
 

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« Reply #20 on: August 31, 2013, 10:39:47 AM »
I thought relapse was much better than recovery, if only for the production... But em was also spitting more raw then he did with recovery. That album was Eminem doin an impression of some1 else... At least with relapse he was doin an impression of his earlier self.,

No way homie.. Relapse was the album with the gay accent.  Em was definitely someone else on that record, he was a Russian immigrant or something... I still don't get it


lmao it wasnt on every track


but like i said, at least that album had some nice production value....recovery was all a buncha sappy, industry shiet
 

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« Reply #21 on: September 01, 2013, 05:18:47 PM »
Let go of the past, it's gone and no matter how wishful you are of the world returning that way, it's not going to.


Your right.  When does the next 2 Chainz album drop?


I get the nostalgia of a new Em single from a new Em album when he was first out when you were growing up.

But let's call a spade a spade: this song is garbage. Further, as a supposed spiritual fella, it was composed by well known satanists and you are dousing your consciousness in it. Just an FYI.

That's not it, Trippa.  I call a spade a spade and that's why I don't bump most of these new school rappers that have came out over the last 10 years.   I still bump the 90's artists, the occasional new artist, and then have gotten into Reggae and 80's love songs to make up for what I'm missing.

I was the first to say that Encore was wack, that Relapse was wack, and that Recovery wasn't horrible but still a shadow of his former self.

This is sincere, that I really think this track "Bezerk" is the bomb shit!  Maybe the rest of the album will be wack, but "Bezerk" is on some next level shit.   As for Rubin being a Satanist, I don't pick up on that from this particular track, and I am only speaking specifically on "Bezerk"... who knows what will come of the album.

Just because you don't consciously feel anything dark, doesn't mean it's not there. They purposely make things subtle.
 

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« Reply #22 on: September 01, 2013, 06:30:14 PM »


Just because you don't consciously feel anything dark, doesn't mean it's not there. They purposely make things subtle.

I won't say for sure it's not there.. but I do think you can pick up a feeling when there is something Satanic inserted.  Like the Eagles "Hotel California", anyone who closes their eyes and listens to it knows it's Satanic.
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« Reply #23 on: September 01, 2013, 06:31:02 PM »
l.a.m.b uses satanism against itself
 

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Just because you don't consciously feel anything dark, doesn't mean it's not there. They purposely make things subtle.

I won't say for sure it's not there.. but I do think you can pick up a feeling when there is something Satanic inserted.  Like the Eagles "Hotel California", anyone who closes their eyes and listens to it knows it's Satanic.

It's for sure there. Rick Rubin is a very high level satanist whose purpose in music is putting spells in the music. I know it sounds retarded but it's true.