Past Present & Future by Bez

[bez]

Past Present & Future

(Hook)  My life like a script, each day I'm actin out,
Searchin for the answer whats my life about,
I was born, still liven, whats in store for me,
Past present and future, this is my story,

July 3rd 1985, I came out my Mum's womb, it was the start of the ride,
You gotta beautiful baby boy, I remember them sayin,
My Mum tellin my Dad that she wants to call him Graeme,
So there was me, born, so glad to be here,
But with every breath I drew I knew death grew near,
Only a few hours old, finally all cleaned up,
Even since the first day I knew that I would be loved,
Plenty of people all around me, callin my name,
These people wern't like me, they was old, such a shame,
They all makin stupid faces, what am I an animal on display,
I wondered if I gave em the finger if they'd all go away,
A few years passed now 3 or 4, loved to play with my cars with my matt on the floor,
Could sit and play for hours, parents use to laugh at my style,
Use to hate takin showers, but I had a beautiful smile,
Always dreaded school, I often faked being sick,
I've always been a loner so I hated the other kids,
Wanted it all my way, I use to hate listening to teachers,
In class I would day dream of sun shine and beaches,
Wanted to make it big, knew that maybe I was special,
7 to 10 I went from an angel to a devil,
Went through a strange phase, turned into a stir craze,
Forgot about sunshine and started to enjoy the rainy days,
Rebellion became common, my childhood become forgotton,
Asthma became so bad, I use to wake up coughin,
Started to dream of ghosts, couldent sleep at night,
I was safe under the cover as long as I could see the light,
High school came around so quick it was funny,
I still loved stayin at home, sleepin, talkin to my mommy,
Was to young for this, the stress was buildin,
I never got bullied but I always felt like I was yeildin,
Got into trouble, petit things I was dumb,
My Mum started thinkin whats happened to her special son,
But that was that, thanks to my parents that they helped me last,
Thats me, thats my story, thats my forgotton past,

(Hook)  My life like a script, each day I'm actin out,
Searchin for the answer whats my life about,
I was born, still liven, whats in store for me,
Past present and future, this is my story,

This July coming up, I'll turn 18,
Its hard to put into a song, the shit I've seen,
I'll finally be refferred to as a man, I know I am,
Its just over all these years I've not give a dam,
Got another year left, studying hard in college,
But the course sucks in my opinion it aint boostin my knowledge,
Taken up computing, interested in machines,
For some reason I feel like I'm gettin futher away from my dreams,
Dont want an office job, I get bored so easy,
I wanna be a boss and order around the people benith me,
Things going wierd, still only 17,
Lately I've started to smoke the green,
But it don't do shit for me, I just like my reality,
I don't need to get high to realise whats around me,
Been stressed to fuck lately, fuck all the people that hate me,
Maybe its my attitude towards life, just maybe,
I maybe need a babie, a girl to love,
I need a good chick, that send from the heavens above,
My life seems to be a cycle, everyday seems the same,
My life is a shame its sucks its ever so plain,
Stress is buildin up, need to escape where I stay,
I ain't feelin no love, the pain just won't go away,
Shits sendin me crazy, I'm asleep all week,
I've become so lazy, Dam I feel so weak,
Life is gettin the better of me, hurtin my insides,
There's no life for the boy that sits at night at cries,
I'm hurtin right now, but I gotta come around,
Ain't prepared for my life to be lived underground,
I gotta be big, gotta be rich, gotta be famous,
Me and my boys all got big dreams can you blame us,
But I'm a keep studying, try and change my life too,
Before this shit is too much and I become suicidal,
This is me now,

(Hook)  My life like a script, each day I'm actin out,
Searchin for the answer whats my life about,
I was born, still liven, whats in store for me,
Past present and future, this is my story,

The future I want, is so far away,
I wanna live in a place where I enjoy each day,
Not care about commerciality, I'll wear what I like,
I'll live originality, I'll live my life,
Sick of being controled, fuck all companies,
Tellin us what to wear how to wear, fuck the industries,
Sittin in there chairs, puffin on their cubans,
They lookin down from their tower blocks laughin at us losers,
Wearin their clothes, makeup, puttin money in their pocket,
Advertisment got us locked down, its anything to make a profit,
And thats get me, its hurts me, Why ain't I free,
Why can't I be me, thats who I wanna be,
Got dress like other people, live like em too,
Can't stand this life that God's puttin me through,
So I hope in the future, I can have a good career,
Live somewhere nice, where I can think, Yer I wanna be here,
Wear what I want, live my life finally in peace,
Cos I'm sick and tired of the shit on the streets,
My life is continous everyday, shits always the same,
Why is my life so hard, when it should be plain,
I get up go to college come home and sleep,
The next day is the same, its like a repeat,
We'll I'm sick of that, my surrowndings need a change,
Fuck my surrowndings my whole life needs to be re arranged,
Thats what I want, thats my future, thats me,

(Hook)  My life like a script, each day I'm actin out,
Searchin for the answer whats my life about,
I was born, still liven, whats in store for me,
Past present and future, this is my story,

['Illicit']

   damn dawg, ill. I loved it, thats my type of subject...  the hook is great imo.

[White-Chocolate]

yo homey, those last 2 verses got skill written on em, peace

[Inspectah]

yo homey, those last 2 verses got skill written on em, peace

^^ Word.. Beutiful Piece!

[TheSheriff]

*sheds a tear*

Beautiful. 10/10

[bez]

thanks ya'll.  Sum more replies please.

[·SiNiStEr·]

straight dope

hope you get to feelin better and find a lucky lady