Losing everything.. what would that be like?

[Inspectah]

( Chorus )

Im falling and theres nobody to break my fall//
I've defended for long enough, with my back to the wall//
My yield has broken, and im being attacked inside out//
My hearts losing the fight, sadness is killing me, i ave no doubt//

( Verse 1 )

I've lived a life, full of different situations//
Then turned 16 im weighed down by complications//
I could just end this all now, suicidal, without a persuasion//
I've taken everyone elses trauma on board, and piled above mine//
I've lost all sense of self control, why am i acting like this? i've lost my mind//
Once i blossomed, the happiest man, now the darkness has clouded my shine//
Theres not much time left, coz i cant take much more, im runnin outta time//

( Chorus )

Im falling and theres nobody to break my fall//
I've defended for long enough, with my back to the wall//
My yield has broken, and im being attacked inside out//
My hearts losing the fight, sadness is killing me, i ave no doubt//

( Verse 2 )

I come home from a day of education, to find myself, depressed//
I feel enclosed in my own room, all my emotions stay in, all withing me compressed//
I cant break free of these walls without a phone call//
Why do you ave to repeat the rules so much for?//
I understand, and im responsible, so respect that//
Coz if you did, you might get some respect back//
Im moving again and im glad in one way//
But i dont get time to settle, mentally, and physically, i can only pray//
That maybe moving, will calm my mind, and resolve my issues//
This could be the last thing i write, before my family gets the tissues//
You've heard the news, and dont know why it happened//
Its coz, i've never had freedom, and trusted enough, so im crackin//
I give so much to people, and i get nothing back, but abuse, whats happenin?//
Do i deserve a life of trauma, turmoil, and hatred, and a career of depressing rapping?//

( Chorus x2 )

Im falling and theres nobody to break my fall//
I've defended for long enough, with my back to the wall//
My yield has broken, and im being attacked inside out//
My hearts losing the fight, sadness is killing me, i ave no doubt//