lyrics - paranioa the schizophrenic remix - no curse words

[BONeZ]

its like i cant differentiate between reality and delusion
cant account for my behaviour
its like im trapped by confusion
did i really do and say those things
try to make sense but my minds refusin
still
i hold myself accountable
i must be guilty
no excusin
i gotta accept the consequences
even though i wern't in my right mind
the repercussions of insanity
its like for a moment i was blind
but now im seein clear again
i cant just leave it all behind
cos im still responsible
this is life
i cant rewind
cant even begin to explain myself
it dont make sense to me
there was no reason
i cant recall what it was i was tryin to achieve
i completely lost the plot
saw and heard what no one else could hear and see
but now im thinkin staright again
i have to face reality
not everyone going to take my state of mind into account
ive put myself in danger
lost all control when i skitzed out
felt staunch when i was crazy
had no fear
just went about
causin all sorts of trouble for these corrupt mutts
but ive got no clout
cant physically defend myself against the devils i attacked
cant come up with nothin valid for these nazis
and thats a fact
just gotta face the consequences
try and be mindful of how i act
try to retain some sense of reality
stead of feelin scared and trapped
gotta try and prevent myself from believin in the delusion
it feels so real
gotta try and protect myself from adversity
im flesh and blood
aint made of steel
gotta try and make amends with friends ive hurt in throes of zeal
gotta count my lucky stars
struggle through
and let wounds heal.