Author Topic: This can't be Real  (Read 219 times)

Cubic Zirconia

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This can't be Real
« on: August 01, 2020, 07:42:49 AM »
He tells me to be shy
He tells me to be sweet
He don't want me to act out
He wants me to be meek
He don't need all that extra stuff from me
And he knows he makes me heart sing the sweetest melody
He tell me he knows
I wanna comfort him
Wanna give him pleasure too
I tell him
He tells me I do
He knows I wanna be everything he needs
I tell him to find someone else
He says he's satisfied with me
I know he deserves more
I'm a wansome women
He don't like my anger or my hate
So I apologize
And everytime
He forgives me
For godsake
I don't deserve this
How he gonna make me feel like the only one
Sometimes I think he lying
I'm lying too
Coz I'm straight sprung
I tell him I don't need him
I tell him to leave
Leave me alone
But every night
There he is
Waiting for me to come home
I don't deserve him
Don't wanna hustle
Don't wanna get played or pimped out
Sometimes I try to please him
He says that's not what he's about
So I massage his back
His neck
I kiss his lips and thighs and pecks
I feel just like a baby coz he pays me in respect
I got this crazy fascination
Thinkin
This cannot be for real
I can't let myself believe him or tell him everything I feel

 

Cubic Zirconia

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Re: This can't be Real
« Reply #1 on: August 02, 2020, 03:05:47 PM »
It's been a while but my love is stronger than before
I know I'll never be everything you be lookin for
But I been lookin for another that treats me better than my lover only to discover I'll never find no other like him
He like a hymn to me
Make me feel heavenly
Not cheap
How can I repay him other than pray for him and stay with him until he leaves
He never make me feel insecure
Infact he makin me feel pure
And intact
It's an exact kinda love that seems to free me and assure
I gotta do somethin for him
Can't keep receiving without rewardin
I'm gone
I swear
I hope he readin this and feelin himself a little more than somethin
And knowing he done me justice
Couldn't ask him for no more than just a little bit of time to come to grips with his allure
Gotta get my act right so I don't put him to shame
I don't wanna act like I'm all that but he got a reputation and a name
A claim to fame
Don't wanna make him feel no shame coz I'm just average
I like bein meek
Don't wanna act like I'm all that or some kind of savage
I like bein soft
He just makin my heart sing
When he whispers that he knows all of these things
So I'm just spun
Never known no one like him before
Never known someone so patient
Trust me
You need to be patient with me
And more
Never mind sometimes I think he playin games
Coz I honestly can't believe someone wanna show me all these thangs
I'm more than sprung
I hope he laughin at me
I know it not gon last
How could I keep him for myself
Plenty women need some love to last
Never mind they kind or staunch or fast
Nevermind all of that
I'm not treating him like my property
He knows it too
Don't wanna trap
Or act like he'll always be mine only
Or that I gotta act all phony
After what he shown me
I wanna be homely
Feelin' at home when he be grown with me
So I'm just hopin when he havin other girls
He treat em just as sweet and give em the best lovin' in the world
 

Cubic Zirconia

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Re: This can't be Real
« Reply #2 on: August 03, 2020, 11:34:40 PM »
He left me
Knew I'd miss him but I knew it weren't gon last
Woke up and felt his kisses
No man ever had me fall that fast
I was over the moon
Smilin all goofy and shit
Now he sayin that he's taken
This why I don't really trust no man
Coz I know they always fakin
Had me shakin
Had me pining
Had me feelin' oh so fly and then he left me
Like all the others
Don't trust none of these muthafuckaz
I'm not mad
Just talkin
Sometimes he wanted to talk but all I wanted was his touch
I don't care how long it lasted
I'm just grateful I had as much as he saw to give me
I'll live B
Made it this far on my own
I should be more worried about trying to find a home
Still
I'll never find a SAFE place
So I crave the lovin' that he give
Fleeting as it was
I'm glad
I'm spent
I'll live
Just for an itty bitty second I believed everything he said
I'm not jealous he found another
I'm not angry that he left
I'm just gunna miss it
The sweet affection
Warm embrace and understanding
He started asking questions but you know I weren't gon start planning
And even if we created somethin a little like a life of it's own
It don't mean I wanna reign with him or perch upon his throne
I'll be fine on my own