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GENIUS MADNESS - 2014?
« on: December 26, 2020, 11:38:03 AM »
I don't remember what year I wrote this.
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GENIUS MADNESS -
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Ecclesiastes 1:16 I communed with mine own heart, saying, Lo, I am come to great estate, and have gotten more wisdom than all [they] that have been before me in Jerusalem: yea, my heart had great experience of wisdom and knowledge.
Ecclesiastes 1:17 And I gave my heart to know wisdom, and to know madness and folly: I perceived that this also is vexation of spirit.

a peculiar person, my ideas become innovations that consumers purchase
creativity machines are based on my brain they're just the computer versions
adept in science and the arts since it won't start i take the GE appliance apart
i noticed the wires they sparked, the problem was the motors alignment in part
I'm a poet, physicists and a mathematician, the living text book definition of academician
when emcees develop a lack of nutrition they feed off me and listen to my rap inventions
a dietitian physician curing malnutrition through cognition acquisition
you can put what i've written along side other compositions of black musicians
a neurotic with a psychotic chaotic way with logic it's psychological
rather methodical it may seem illogical but the disorder is neurological
the authentic egocentric eccentric i have trouble forming friendships
i been sick this is intrinsic, works are centric to psychiatry forensics
other than in loathing circumstances i feel like I'm overflowing with talent
just trying to regain balance can't sleep so i drink melatonin in gallons
was told on campus my habits were due to a serotonin imbalance
wrote another album overdosing on stanzas writing and composing on canvas

because of a thesis about the sequence of the dna double helix
I was put on the deans list, he said i've never seen this you may be a genius
I was speechless i spent countless nights contemplating sleepless
I'm a unforeseen myth, i stay ahead like a prefix, revealing scientific secrets
purportedly the overly judgmental majority show what resembles inferiority
they detest my fundamental authority as well as my mental superiority
even when i was younger there was a backlash students would be mad up in math class
i got the last laugh while they struggled i would finish test around half pass
i was the teachers pet that would make seniors fret
i would become overly upset when i would receive a threat
hated on because i had my hand raised and they weren't even done reading yet
i noticed everyone else had to work harder on the weekly test
but i never considered that i may be smarter than the rest
i just always try to set the marker farther than the best
even though i was the target of their threats, i harbor no regrets
i feel like a martyr and i thought this subject outta be addressed

my behavior is not passive it's obsessive when i write it's massive excessive
poems of graphic expressions that showcase being manic depressive
without a question i would say my genetic madness is aggressive
for the most part i suppress it and yet manage with being possessive
you could call me paranoid groups or crowds i tend to avoid
I get easily annoyed, because of this it's not easy to be employed
I'm either brilliant or have a mental illness, really am i insane?
resilient I remain, to put away the mundane is the fulfillment of my brain
i draw devices of aeronautical elements and chart precise astronomical measurements
i do the latter of the two for excellence not for astrological reverence
I'm a perfectionist i practice and in no time i can say i have perfected this
highly intelligent, it's effortless, the amount of time it takes is indefinite
back and forth like a sporadic gyrator I'm a displayer of erratic behavior
I'm like a enigmatic, dogmatic dictator, that was my emphatic disclaimer
i avoid being amongst handguns because i may have a mental spasm
my anger is like splitting' atoms when I'm having a random temper tantrum

focused on the future now I'm headed in this direction in a constant state of introspection
seeking progression not contraceptives i don't want to miss out on life like i missed conception
based on my unique perception people are often left with the wrong impressions
i answer lots of questions concerning me but there are still many huge misconceptions
I'm extremely innovative and completely creative
whether that's a link between insanity or not that has been deeply debated
i hesitated taking medications however i was briefly persuaded
but being medicated i hate it, it makes me feel sleepy, sedated
I'm obsessed with my own beautiful mind and it's usual rhymes
at the time there were some delusional signs present when i was out doing juvenile crimes
looking back my criminal regression was due to clinical depression
i've since learned that for people like me crime is a typical profession
this is my message to the adolescent on antidepressants seeking acceptance
my assessment of the genius madness interconnections and my own personal imperfections
these days i study and memorize the bible just like a true disciple
it's vital for my survival and i no longer feel suicidal

2 Timothy - 1:7 For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.