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Life Story Before Islam
« on: July 14, 2003, 06:04:11 AM »
Chapter 7.  My Life, My Prison, Before I Knew That I Could Become A Muslim


On the outside, I had everything.  I had everything that an average American kid could desire.  

I grew up in an upper-middle-class white nieghborhood.  I had dozens of friends.  I dated beautiful girls.  I was good enough to play for my highschool basketball team.  My family had enough money to send me to whatever college I chose (within reason).  When I was in highschool, my parents used to always ask me, "What's Wrong?"  One time I finally got fed up and replied, "School sucks and home sucks".  

Today I am ashamed that I would say something like that to my parents after the sacrifices they made for me.  At the time, I didn't see what my father worked so hard for.  We had a big house.  A living room that we never lived in.  A dining room that we never dined in.  Both these rooms were off-limits.  They were only for looks.  It seemed to me then that my whole family was just "for looks".  Sometimes, with various friends or girlfriends I had, every once in a while I would have a "deep" conversation, in it, we would reveal to eachother just how miserable we thought our lives were.  Misery loves company.  If it was a girlfriend of mine, she would of said something similar to this to me in one of these conversations:

"People think that they know me, but they really don't. (Such and Such girl) is a bitch, and she is so niave.  Everyone tries to act like there lives are so perfect, but they are just fake.  I need someone who is real.  Sometimes I think I don't give a fuck anymore what happens.  After what my father did to my mom, and after what my last boyfriend did to me, it's like, I don't give a fuck anymore.  I'm so sad, and then so confused, sometimes I don't even know which way is up.  I can't trust anyone anymore.  Either a guy is too atatched to me and I don't like it.  Or he doesn't spend enough time with me and I get jelous.  I just want us to have fun, and I just want to forget about everything."    

Why were we all so miserable on the inside?  Why couldn't we just enjoy our lives and go along with it?

The truth is.  Most of us do go along with it.  OUR WHOLE LIVES.  Every once in a while in highschool, we would all get drunk together and express our apathy for the outside world.  Sometimes, the truth would come out after you had humiliated your friend or girlfriend by abandoning them, and they would cry out for sympathy and compassion.  Some people used art to express their despondency.  Live vicariously through their favorite musical artist and have their feelings gain national exposure through the music.  Have you heard American music.  Their is a reason why so many people in America identify with the violence, drug abuse, suicidal tendencies and sexual degradation that permeates the music.  This music represents who they think they are.  Infact, their were some groups of kids in school who didn't want to be "fake".  So they walked around wearing all black (They were called Mansonites after rockstar Marilyn Manson).  Their goal was to be "real" and show their indifference to the world more noticably.  These are the kids who were called "losers" and "geeks" in highschool.  However, their only "fault" was their inability to mask their true selves from the outside world.

There was a time when life had once made sense to us.  First, most of us started out Christian.
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Re:Bush doesn't want peace in Iraq when there's so much to gain
« Reply #1 on: July 14, 2003, 07:40:43 AM »
iraq is already america's. of course he wants peace. i got respect for you, but this thread is just stupid and ignorant.
 

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Re:Bush doesn't want peace in Iraq when there's so much to gain
« Reply #2 on: July 14, 2003, 07:52:01 AM »
iraq is already america's. of course he wants peace. i got respect for you, but this thread is just stupid and ignorant.

Thanks for the respect.  But if there was peace, then America could no longer justify being an occupying force, so then they would have to accept oil at bargain prices instead of stealing it for free.  (While the taxpayers pay for the deployment of troops)
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Re:Bush doesn't want peace in Iraq when there's so much to gain
« Reply #3 on: July 14, 2003, 07:57:50 AM »
iraq is already america's. of course he wants peace. i got respect for you, but this thread is just stupid and ignorant.

Thanks for the respect.  But if there was peace, then America could no longer justify being an occupying force, so then they would have to accept oil at bargain prices instead of stealing it for free.  (While the taxpayers pay for the deployment of troops)

that's like thinking america planned the attacks of september 11th
 

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Re:Bush doesn't want peace in Iraq when there's so much to gain
« Reply #4 on: July 14, 2003, 08:21:08 AM »
that's like thinking america planned the attacks of september 11th

The people at the top certainly benefited
 

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Re:Bush doesn't want peace in Iraq when there's so much to gain
« Reply #5 on: July 14, 2003, 08:22:38 AM »
that's like thinking america planned the attacks of september 11th

The people at the top certainly benefited

are you saying you believe that? ::)
 

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Re:Bush doesn't want peace in Iraq when there's so much to gain
« Reply #6 on: July 14, 2003, 08:24:51 AM »
I believe what I just said.
 

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Re:Bush doesn't want peace in Iraq when there's so much to gain
« Reply #7 on: July 14, 2003, 08:30:28 AM »
ok
 

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Re:Bush doesn't want peace in Iraq when there's so much to gain
« Reply #8 on: July 14, 2003, 08:51:58 AM »
Are you saying you disagree?
 

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Re:Bush doesn't want peace in Iraq when there's so much to gain
« Reply #9 on: July 14, 2003, 08:56:46 AM »
Infinite, you don't even seem like a real person anymore. Just one giant Muslim billboard. Maybe people would respect you more if they could see the human side of you as opposed to the angry american hating American that you are.
 

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Re:Bush doesn't want peace in Iraq when there's so much to gain
« Reply #10 on: July 14, 2003, 08:58:12 AM »
i don't agree. i'm not saying i disagree though. it did make their job harder if you talk about politicians. if you talk about other people with a lot of money, they lost money.

 

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Re:Bush doesn't want peace in Iraq when there's so much to gain
« Reply #11 on: July 14, 2003, 09:05:38 AM »
i don't agree. i'm not saying i disagree though. it did make their job harder if you talk about politicians. if you talk about other people with a lot of money, they lost money.




I think Bush himself and the whole administration benefited.  Bush was a one term certainty with low approval ratings before he got the chance to demonstrate leadership.
 

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Re:Bush doesn't want peace in Iraq when there's so much to gain
« Reply #12 on: July 14, 2003, 09:27:24 AM »
i don't agree. i'm not saying i disagree though. it did make their job harder if you talk about politicians. if you talk about other people with a lot of money, they lost money.




I think Bush himself and the whole administration benefited.  Bush was a one term certainty with low approval ratings before he got the chance to demonstrate leadership.

don't know about that. he didn't really have anything important to do until september 11th (don't take that too literally ;)). i wouldn't want to be in his shoes as a president.
 

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Re:Bush doesn't want peace in Iraq when there's so much to gain
« Reply #13 on: July 14, 2003, 09:28:57 AM »
Disgraceful, this is the future of america, folks, people that think like this.  America's going to turn into the hell that the middle east is, because the same sentiments are going around over here.  Oh well, maybe I'll be dead by then, and won't have to see my kids suffer through it.  
 

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Re:Bush doesn't want peace in Iraq when there's so much to gain
« Reply #14 on: July 14, 2003, 09:29:14 AM »
Bush and the war hawks don't mind the fact that American soldiers are recieving 10 to 25 violent attacks a day.  It gives them an excuse to occupy Iraq for a longer period and usurp more of Iraq's resources.  The only thing "free" in Iraq is it's oil.  And don't be stupid and selfish and think that as American's we are benefitting from the exploitation of Iraq.  Actually, we are the one's paying the 4 billion dollar a month bill to occupy Iraq while the war hawks got their hands deep in industry's like Hallingburton and are stacking away enough doe to keep their grandkid's grandkid's rich and powerful.  

But just as they make plans Allah makes plans.  And Allah is the best of planners.

I agree with everything you said except that muslim shit....because all religions are b/s.