Hurtin By Bez

[bez]

I lived through shit and its fucked, I just cant catch a break,
Hate the way I looked since a kid, hate the choices a make,
Never claimed to be anything I aint, want people to appreciate me,
But when they look, they bow there head and show no love, despise what they see,
Girls, aint never been interested, not the boyfriend material,
Got myself thinkin wheather my looks are imperial,
Give off the wrong impressions, laughin stock of the college class,
Third year its a miricle, cos I thought I'd never last,
Havin trouble sleepin too, barly make the early bus,
Gettin told off in the street by old folk cause I cuss,
Shits just not going right, thinkin christmas is arrivin soon,
Another winter alone cold, shiverin, cryin tears of ice in my room,
Strugglin to finish work off when I should be partyin,
18 and I'm sacrificin my youth for my work, cant help but put my heart in,
Whats happened to my life, I'm young but actin older,
Life might as well be over, cos I'm bein shown the cold shoulder,

(Chorus) I see familys sittin gathered enjoy their times together,
I stand outside freezin, god dam this snowy weather,
Gotta spend time outside the house to avoid the constant shoutin,
I know I can be what I want in life, my own skills I aint doubtin,
I'm just lookin for love, but each direction seems vacant,
God dam I hate this, but I'm gunna make it thru the hatred,
Cos I'm survivin thru the hard times,

Brother workin full time, seems like he gets all the love,
I ain't prepared to be second in line when it comes to hugs,
Cos every kid knows their mother needs to love them first,
I'm been left in the shadows ever since my birth,
God dam it hurts, I've been left on my own defendless,
Helpless, aint been beaten but my mind is senseless,
I hate this, aint feelin like a deprived child,
I'm so lucky compared to other kids, like the warrior congo child,
Yet I'm feelin all sickly, kinda silly really,
My work is outter this world, yet my parents can't get near me,
No appreciation, no props or congrats, perhaps I'm directin em away from the facts,
The spend nights out while I stay at home and put my feelins into raps,
It wud hurt em if they read this, so I'll delete when I'm done,
Cos I got more heart in my to let my mother know shes hurtin her son,
All I'm askin for is to be noticed, put out at front for a change,
Father compares me to my brother and does he compare him to me, no way cos Graeme aint better than James,
Goin to college actually helps me cos I'm freein my mind,
Buildin my knowledge, knowin that one day I can leave this place behind,

(Chorus) I see familys sittin gathered enjoy their times together,
I stand outside freezin, god dam this snowy weather,
Gotta spend time outside the house to avoid the constant shoutin,
I know I can be what I want in life, my own skills I aint doubtin,
I'm just lookin for love, but each direction seems vacant,
God dam I hate this, but I'm gunna make it thru the hatred,
Cos I'm survivin thru the hard times,

Career prospects faling, father ignores me when I bring up uni,
I know why you dont see me its cos you don't want me to make money for than you, truly,
Its shady, I feel crazy, but my parents just don't care,
A meal a day aint enough for my Mum, I wanna know your there,
I gotta feel the love from you two, I gotta know I'm wanted,
Cos currently the world's at my feet and I'm feelin daunghted,
Need you to point out a path cos I aint ready to lead my own way,
I pray every day that you can realise that your drivin me away,
I want you to stand up and open your arms and say where proud of you son,
Then I can finally put into rhymes how much I love my dad and mom!

(Chorusx2) I see familys sittin gathered enjoy their times together,
I stand outside freezin, god dam this snowy weather,
Gotta spend time outside the house to avoid the constant shoutin,
I know I can be what I want in life, my own skills I aint doubtin,
I'm just lookin for love, but each direction seems vacant,
God dam I hate this, but I'm gunna make it thru the hatred,
Cos I'm survivin thru the hard times,

[Jimmy Cash]

even doperer, was really feelin this

[Reef]

Word.. that is nice.. always sumthin i can seem to relate 2!