It's April 25, 2024, 05:22:10 PM
The only time I really thought about it was if I was trying to think of a bad ass way to go out when I got blazed. Like robbing a bank or some shit like that. Suicide was never an option for me. My mom is in a wheelchair. She needs me. I can't do something like that to her.
i never would but i understand how it seems easier. life is hard sometimes and things may seem overwhelming, especially for kids in their late teens early twenties, worrying about their future and wether or not they are going to be able to make it in life having to work raise kids own homes get married, that shit can be intimidating, and since everyone is going to die why not do it? however once you do it thats it, if you live and make wrong choices you can correct them, if you kill yourself, afterwards you cant be like ahh shit i wish i didnt do that. peoples families friends are the ones that suffer. just hold ya head up everyone will be ok, just believe you can make it and you can, i used to get scared that my workload was gonna be huge, and i mean the idea pops up but i would reject that shit because i love my family and friends too much, and i dont know how but one day im going to make a difference in this world, i still have goals that i would like to achieve, people that i would like to influence for the better, and i feel that there is something great that i can do before i leave.i hope that this kid didnt do it...
everytime i am waiting for the train. and when it reaches the station. i wonder how its like if i'd jump. so i take 2 steps back.
lol i remember when i was high as hell and my friend is drivin and the windo is open and im like i wonder if it would hurt if i put my hand out the window and smacked a parked car as we drove by, and hes like bro your hand will break into a million pieces and im like lol nah i wont do it, but im like put my window up and lock it just in case lol.