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You guys ever feel like...
evan the dude:
Now, I'm gonna say this 1st and foremost. This is some deep shit, but I felt like I had to let it out somewhere...
So I'm 21. All in all, I think that I've led a somewhat good life. I was raised by my mom and grew up in Alaska. I had good influences growing up. However, now that I'm somewhat grown up, I look at the position that I'm at in life and I can honestly say that I'm not happy homies. My troubles stem from after the high school days. Back then, everything seemed perfect. I was oblivious of the concealed world of conformity that high school is. Don't get me wrong, I had a blast hanging out with all my friends, guys and girls alike. However, it wasn't until a year ago that I realized that world was a safe place that was "fun". It was a world without responsibility. A world where all you had to worry about was what you wore the next day to school, or what so and so thought about you, etc. I look back at it now, and I envy the fuck out of it. It sucks.
This is where my problem comes in. The people that were closest to me back in those days of carelessness are still with me today. Cool right? That should be a good thing? Not necessarily. Those same people that were surrounded by me are the reason I created this thread. You guys ever feel like the people that are closest to you are the people, that in the end, are the people that bring you down? That is my current predicament. Every weekend, it's "Hey Evan, come take this shot" or, "Evan, take this beer bong". I try to step away and say no, but if i don't, i get shunned. I shouldn't care, but those friends from back in high school are like family to me. As I said earlier, my mom raised me. So those guys are like my other father, as silly as that sounds. I feel like if I don't hang with them and do the things that they do (which is only drink by the way) that I'm somehow letting them down. The thing is that all of my friends out of high school that I still hang out with, called "The Group", are all successful. They all hold steady jobs and live on their own. Me myself however, am not. I worked at Quiznos for the past year on and off. A lot of the on and offing had to do with drinking.
So all in all, I made an executive decision: I plan to move in September out of Alaska to Sacramento with my dad. I feel this will be the best move for me. However, it's gonna suck leaving the people that have made me who I am. In the end though, my mind tells me that I need to. I will be back with my father, who is a very inspirational guy. This is my calling and I know I need to take it to become something in life. To everyone that actually read all the way through my spiel: thank you. I appreciate it beyond belief. I had to let all of this out...I was close to imploding haha.
Thanks homies, and have a good night.
Evan
Samoan Enforcer:
that sounds cool, you'll have fun in sac its nice and big and hot and ghetto. you love hip hop so it'll work. and really chop it up with pops while you're there.
QuietTruth:
That's good that chu made a decision. AND are happy wit it. Good luck homie.
Screw the friends. ;D
TraceOneInfinite:
--- Quote from: evan the dude on March 31, 2007, 05:15:09 AM ---Now, I'm gonna say this 1st and foremost. This is some deep shit, but I felt like I had to let it out somewhere...
So I'm 21. All in all, I think that I've led a somewhat good life. I was raised by my mom and grew up in Alaska. I had good influences growing up. However, now that I'm somewhat grown up, I look at the position that I'm at in life and I can honestly say that I'm not happy homies. My troubles stem from after the high school days. Back then, everything seemed perfect. I was oblivious of the concealed world of conformity that high school is. Don't get me wrong, I had a blast hanging out with all my friends, guys and girls alike. However, it wasn't until a year ago that I realized that world was a safe place that was "fun". It was a world without responsibility. A world where all you had to worry about was what you wore the next day to school, or what so and so thought about you, etc. I look back at it now, and I envy the fuck out of it. It sucks.
This is where my problem comes in. The people that were closest to me back in those days of carelessness are still with me today. Cool right? That should be a good thing? Not necessarily. Those same people that were surrounded by me are the reason I created this thread. You guys ever feel like the people that are closest to you are the people, that in the end, are the people that bring you down? That is my current predicament. Every weekend, it's "Hey Evan, come take this shot" or, "Evan, take this beer bong". I try to step away and say no, but if i don't, i get shunned. I shouldn't care, but those friends from back in high school are like family to me. As I said earlier, my mom raised me. So those guys are like my other father, as silly as that sounds. I feel like if I don't hang with them and do the things that they do (which is only drink by the way) that I'm somehow letting them down. The thing is that all of my friends out of high school that I still hang out with, called "The Group", are all successful. They all hold steady jobs and live on their own. Me myself however, am not. I worked at Quiznos for the past year on and off. A lot of the on and offing had to do with drinking.
So all in all, I made an executive decision: I plan to move in September out of Alaska to Sacramento with my dad. I feel this will be the best move for me. However, it's gonna suck leaving the people that have made me who I am. In the end though, my mind tells me that I need to. I will be back with my father, who is a very inspirational guy. This is my calling and I know I need to take it to become something in life. To everyone that actually read all the way through my spiel: thank you. I appreciate it beyond belief. I had to let all of this out...I was close to imploding haha.
Thanks homies, and have a good night.
Evan
--- End quote ---
Yo, I read all that and it sounds like you already figured out what path you have to take. I wish you success. Peace.
Elevz:
So all you do with them is get drunk and hang out, acting stupid and all, but they're successful in life while you're not? If that's the case, something must've went wrong along the way, but it's hard to tell from your post what exactly it is. I don't know what standards you hold for these definitions you're using, so it's hard to judge for me.
I actually used to be in a somewhat similar situation some years ago. I had some friends who really kept me down - it's like they suppressed my mental development. I gradually shook them loose somewhat, but it pissed them off because I wasn't hanging out with them as much as I used to. In the end, it was all for my own good though, and I'm glad I did what I had to do.
In your situation though, it's not like you'll necessarily have to leave your friends all behind. You can still keep in contact with them, and it won't have to bother you as much as it does now. Things may only get better, I believe that. You'll be just fine in Sacremento, because with a fresh start, that's when life really kicks off! Props Evan, because that post was real.
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