Permanently Scarred

[QuietTruth]

Suffered years in silence, sittin' around watching violence
Holding back tears over the years, hiding behind shyness
Thangs in home goin' on I wasn't able to explain when asked
And til this day half my dudes now don't have a clue bout my past
Which becuz of that, I always minded my business to play it safe in the game
Unforuntaly growing up in the hood it couldn't always be that way
I was stepped to for days, when I hit my teen-age
Cat's callin' my name, off on Mary Jane, chillin' on they decks like Ace & Spade
Knockin' a kidd, making jokes when they coughed
They brushed the kidd off, sayin' the kidd was too soft
Taking matters into my own hands I broke the nigga's jaw
In the middle of the hood, so the whole projects saw
I was torn, torn between what was right, what was wrong
Drama was too much in my life and the teasing went on too long
Other dude I threatened, told him he'll be the next nigga to get it
Spread thru ears, dude squared, so out my punches I let it
This cat's Lip-I-Tore, now he known to the hood as 'Medication'
He shoulda listened to my words clear when I said I wasn't playin'
Beef started but I never wanted it to begin with, but it's too late
Hate the nigga but we gotta talk, I ain't tryin' to see another pair of gates

I don't wanna wait for our lives to be over
I wanna know right now what's it gonna be
And I dont wanna wait for our lives to be over
I wanna know right now can we all be free

A lil punk, I acted it out since it was what I was calleded
Didn't listen to nobody if I was goin' to be scalded
I didn't know exactly what they meant, just knew the name
Didn't understand why the attitude I just knew it came
So as I got older my problems with people reached a peak
Fuck you and you, and I didn't feel I needed to speak
Have to be a big brother but I'm not bothered
I don't got a role model neither, and I'm not your father
Felt like it was only me, so only me it was
Ruined alot of my soul just becuz
To piss myself off but wasn't as a big a buzz
Until I had followers, money see, monkey does
I was always a brat, too much of a fuckin' pain
A budern and a loser, and than guess what my brothers became
This urban-darma, these strong willed nightmares
Seeing them vivdly the more the sight nears
Lookin' in the mirrior at this gutta-nutta youth child
Seeing thru my own eyes of bitterness, the proof's wild

My days and nights are gettin' long
We can't make it by doin' wrong
And I can't take it anymore
Death is knockin' at my door
Will my whole life pass me by
I try to escape when I close my eyes
I don't know if I will survive
Will I live or will I die
I don't wanna wait

I don't wanna wait for our lives to be over
I wanna know right now what's it gonna be
And I dont wanna wait for our lives to be over
I wanna know right now can we all be free

Growing up seeing violence than I became it, I'm permanently scarred
Victim of bad language than I gave it, I'm permanently scarred

I don't wanna wait for our lives to be over
I wanna know right now what's it gonna be
And I dont wanna wait for our lives to be over
I wanna know right now can we all be free

[K.Dub]

Dude, u wrote that?

[QuietTruth]

Yeah.

[K.Dub]

Yeah.

Why so down! That shit was gooood man, damn. Get that on record!

+1

[QuietTruth]

The chorus and shit ain't mines, the verses is.  I appreciate the feedback Dub, though. Propz, and very very good looks!!

[D-Reborn]

+1 dope as fuck and as usual from ya but muthafuckas complete the Ultimate Keystyle so we can have a dubcc All Stars Keystyle

 

[QuietTruth]

^ No doubt, propz homie.

[Nigga_With_An_Additude]

Qt your stuff is always so good,you discribed the hood so well

[swangin and bangin]

god damn
feelin it
+1 (in an hour)

[QuietTruth]

^ That's whats up, propz ya'll!!