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ZILLA THA GOODFELLA:
Hmmm, im makin this as basic as I can...If U don't see tha connections I'm makin here...don't bother responding...


My brother...he gone be in prison for over 10 years...He never felt that he belonged anywhere or 2 anything...He grew up in tha gutter...East Palo Alto, West Bay Area, CA...1993 Murder Capital of U.S.A...He waz tha defenition of LOCO...He didn't give a fuck, felt it waz him against tha world...He considered his people tha ones on da streets that he use 2 go to Turf wars with...


Now we look at someone like Infinite...He waz neglected, he didn't really have a relationship wit his parents...and tha place where he grew up in, it wasn't no "hood" per say so he didn't deal with all that bullshit, He waz a typical white dood who had alot of issues growin up...He had problems with females also and didn't feel like he belonged anywhere or to anything...until he found Islam...He learned more and more and got really into it...in tha past year he has got so into it that he considers muslims as his only people, He feels like he belongs to something now...whether he likes to admit it or not, he does not want to have any relations wit people that are not Muslims...He has become a Fanatic...If U read about that dood Johnny Walker's life, U will see alot of similarities...


My brother got so deep in tha street shit that he felt his only people were his people on his turf...whether he likes 2 admit it or not, he did not have no respect and did not want to have anything to do wit anyone that wasn't like him & disagreed wit his ways, he waz willin to die for it...kinda like infinite once again...


Me...I have analyzed everything and everyone...Yes, I do rep for a certain gang rite here where I'm at, still semi-active at times...but no way am I tryin 2 get too deep in da streets, I did alot of dirt from 14-17, I went to tha Hall twice, got stabbed etc lost 4 homies from that shit...but never tried 2 get too deep into it...I made sure I'ma graduate from high skool, goin to a UNIVERSITY on financial aide rite now and have all my goals ready 2 be reached...I'm signed 2 an independent label, make my chump change from it but building a name for myself...
Also, I do believe in god...I waz born into a Muslim family, been around Hard-Core fanatic Muslims & Not so Hard-Core ones all my life...analyzed everything they do...but if there's 1 thing my mom taught me is to follow my heart...as U can tell, my mother is not a very hard-core muslim because if she waz, she wouldn't accept me not following everything Islam says...she luvs her family with all her heart but knows tha consequences of gettin too deep into shit like that...She has a great relationship with god and I know this because over tha years I've seen how god answers her...She is a very open-minded female...She goes to Mosque sometimes then goes to Church other times...


Infinite calls me a hypocrite...but what he doesn't realize is that I don't give a flying fuck about what I'm labeled as...He would defend muslims no matter what, even if he feels it's wrong in his heart, he justifies it in tha name of Islam...dats more of a hypocrite 2 me...He prolly thinks just because I go against characters like Trauma or CWalker on christian subjects, I'm doin it just cuzz I'm a "muslim"...


How long do we have to live? not long...who knows when it's they time 2 go, even if U live till yur in yur 100s, it still isn't long AT ALL...so there's no reason 2 get into shit that deeply...Why live yur life according 2 a book? Just live yur life & make sure U have god by yur side...enjoy yurself...don't live yur life thinkin if I don't follow this certain way then my after life will be fucked...Don't stress about others and what they believe in...I'm writin this shit rite now for tha fuck of it...but I could care-less about someone like infinite...I don't stress that shit...but if U bring hate around my way, then U gone get squashed...by building a real relationship with god (Just U & Him) U will accomplish anything...I kno god is by my side...dats why I aint got no fear...none.

Anyway...I'll come back and elaborate a lil more if I need to...I'ma go sip on my 40 and enjoy myself wit my people rite now cuzz who knows if I'ma live 2 see 2morow...

Trauma-san:
Well, I see what you're saying, although I don't even come close to agreeing with some of it, especially the "why live your life by a book" comments, I can understand why someone would want to.

At the end of the day, though, you have to realize that you don't know Brian, or Me, or any of the people on here, so you dont' really know what he's like.  He may be totally different than he comes across online.  I'm totally different than I come across online, people would have NO clue, so I always try to reserve that judgement when people piss me off on here.  Peace~

ZILLA THA GOODFELLA:
See...dats bullshit cuzz yur backfiring it on me...I wouldn't waste my time on that shit...I never made a comment like I know U...

Only reason I talk on Infinite is cuzz he alwayz be talkin all this shit about how American culture has taken over me and how I'm not a muslim cuzz I don't follow everything...I dun give a fuck, I'm not a muslim then...wachu wanna do about it?
Mannnn, this dood lived wit Doggy 4 a while & Doggy told me hella shit about him that makes perfect sense...Dood just been gettin into this shit for like a couple of years and he already a suicide bomber...but I stil ain't gonna claim I kno him...I'm just stating this shit cuzz I been lettin everything he sayin slip till now...

btw, Fuck Nation of Islam. Those people are what I call hypocrites. If U gonna be a Muslim, follow tha real Islam, but be down 2 earth, How U gone come up wit an "American twist"...wuteva man...religions seperates us all, I choose not 2 participate...I got my relationship wit god & I'ma stick to wat I do...

Lincoln:
I feel ya to a degree Rod. In the last while I've discovered Islam & believe in it more than any other religion...but like you I don't necessarily follow it to a 100% degree...I try to but it's hard because there's no Mosque in my area..closest is a 30 minute drive and I don't own a car although I might be moving in that area for College. However, I'd like to follow Islam better. For example, I'm going to try to fast a couple of days a month to build myself up to fast for a full month a year.

ZILLA THA GOODFELLA:
Gyea...good shit man...just follow it and build yur relationship with god...forget being tha best Muslim as U can be...cuzz then, life would be boring...live it up, but set limits & maintain dat relationship wit god...

Last year I fasted 11 dayz of ramadan...shit aint too hard, It's all mental...but I got a life & needed energy on different occassions, so couldnt do it all month, but it's all good, dun matter, tha thought is what counts, keep at it mane...

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