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my life is incredibly boring.
NobodyButMe:
does anyone else feel this way? i've noticed that for the past few years, I've felt this way, but it never really hit me until now.
i graduated college two years ago, and immediatly after college i went travelling throughout europe for a couple of months. all i could do when i was there was wish that i was home. then i got home and realized that i had no real goals in life and no real direction. then, after much internal struggle, i decided to get off my ass in california and move to new york to get a nice job. i worked my ass off and now i'm in new york, working on wall street and i'm bored out of my mind. i come home and just watch tv or fuck around on www.dubcc.com.
i got probably the best girlfriend in my life and i can't help but feel like an asshole because i'm just boring and bored around her. i've just recently noticed that the main thing that kept me 'not-bored' was that i'd break up with a girl as soon as possible after sex in order to find someone new and mysterious. that shits fucked up.
i used to buy lots of cds to keep my interested in something, but now i feel like there isn't really anything that catches my interest anymore.
anyways, it's driving me crazy. i feel like a waste of life. i want some fucking hobbies or something that i can look forward to. the problem is (like kanye said) "you gotta be rich just to be poor here." it's true. 6 dollars for milk? i thought about taking classes, but after living in california where you can take 5 credits for 25 bucks, it's hard to accept paying 600 for 5 credits. i read a lot, but reading just sounds boring, although it's not really that boring.
i used to play a lot of basketball, but recently my ankles have been acting up and my doctor told me that my ankles and feet are a "basketball nightmare." so he's suggested physical therapy. but i don't have the money. so my recourse is to not play ball.
i kinda thought that i'd be able to have some fun with that music program fruity loops, but it's like trying to decipher the rosetta stone. i'm using my cousins copy, and there are 4000000000 things to do, none of which i know how. it's frustrating and i just don't seem to have the motivation or energy to try to learn it.
on top of all that, moving to new york is somewhat like going to a foreign country. it's really difficult to make friends. people are so absorbed in their own lives that no one really has time to stop and talk to anyone new. it's crazy because i notice it myself. for example, someone knocked me over today on the train, and i didn't even look at the person to acknowledge them. and yesterday, someone dropped their bag on the back of my foot while i was walking, causing my shoe to come off, and i didn't even look at the person to acknowledge their apology. it's interesting to see how wrapped up we get out here.
i'm proud of myself for taking the leap of faith in moving to a new place (3000) miles away in order to try something new, but now i find myself in the same predicament. i'm bored out of my mind.
i would like to pose a question at the end of this rant, but i don't know if it really matters. i'm sure many of you (if you have the patience to read this) are going to tell me all about yourselves, and how much smarter and more clever you are than me, but that's not really what i want to hear. i guess i just wanna hear what you guys do when you get bored. cuz everybody gets bored. (i think). they say that people who are bored are boring people. i don't want to believe it, but i have a sneaking suscpicion it might be true.....
i don't know how to close this so i'll just do it like this.
King Tech Quadafi:
convert to Islam. Infinite will give u the run down and I'll coach.
Either that or become a Pothead, what ever comes first.
NobodyButMe:
--- Quote from: King Tech Quadafi on May 06, 2004, 08:26:27 PM ---convert to Islam. Infinite will give u the run down and I'll coach.
Either that or become a Pothead, what ever comes first.
--- End quote ---
i was once a pothead....that's a good idea. seriously, if i was a pothead, i don't think i would be that bored. but it'd fuck up other parts of my life.
Trauma-san:
Your problem is you're looking for something that isn't there. You have to eventually, somehow, get to a point where you can sit in a dark room alone and be happy. You're alive, life can't be all that boring. I won't preach to you because you don't want to hear it, and most don't respect my opinion anyways, but good luck!
JTSimon:
Yeah sometimes life gets boring anyways you got me thinking about this song.
:D
Stacie Orrico - More To Life
I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down, and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
and why can't I let it go?
(Chorus)
There's gotta be more to life
than chasing out every temporary high to satisfy me
'Cause the more that I
trippin' up thinkin' there must be more to life
Well, there's life, but I'm sure
There's gotta be more
(I'm wanting more)
I've got the time, and I'm wasting it slowly
And, at this moment, I'm halfway out the door
Onto the next thing I'm searching for something that's missing
(Chorus)
(I'm wanting more)
(I'm just waiting for something)
other than this
'Cause I'm feeling like there's something I'm missing
(Chorus 2X, key change)
more to, more to, more to life
more to, more to life
more to, more to life
There's gotta be more
more to life...
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