'One Reason'
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All I need is one reason
One reason
One reason why I'm breathing
All I've been assigned to in this life, doesn't seem rite
I helded up my white flag about 10 thousand times
Uncomparable to God's name, when I needed HELP
When I didn't know wat suicide was n wanted to kill myself
Never had a guide too, tell me how to glide thru
A problem that could combine two, I've been lied to
My father act racist, he only love the white dude
He only want him to smoke and light, in the rite mood
I've been abandoned, nothing been handed,
Caught my mama candid and I can't stand it
She don't like me none, not her type of son
You know how many nights I coulda used a gun
My feelings are numb, there's so much hurt inside
Up in my room, at night, contemplating matricide
Alone for eternal, opposite of immortal, cuz I'm rotten
When I die, I wanna be dead for good, gone and forgotten
MY SOUL IS BROKEN, LIKE GOLF, IT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO FIX
NO SPIRIT INSIDE, IT DIED WHEN I TURNED SIX
WHEN I WAS YOUNG, WHEN I WAS STILL FUCKIN GUILTLESS
A LITTLE RESENTMENT, BECUZ THEY FUCKIN BUILTLESS
PEOPLE GET MAD, SAY MY LOYALTY IS TO THE WRONG PERSON
I'M FIGHTING 15 AND MYSELF, COME AND TAKE WAT I'M VERSING
YOU SO GLOOMY SO DEPRESSED, NIGGA YOU HAVENT SEEN DARK
LIKE PEN ON WALLS, YA'LL NUTHIN' BUT MARKS
All I need is one reason
One reason
One reason why I'm breathing
Enuff wit your wailing, enuff with that fake remorse
This is what I say to myself of course
Enuff wit the pity, Lord, take these tears
It's the same water drops, I've felt for years
You'd think as a child feelings will dissappear
Vanish? Ha, look, these emotions is still here!
My ears was closed to talk, neva needed to hear a sample
Of they mindless chatter, that wasn't for me to handle
Seeing is ample so I always kept my eyes open to example
And look where it has gotten me, a self-made vandal
Of my own life! Gave up of my own right
to be joyful, happyness is long outta site
I quit, I gave up, Departed like the Red sea
With a strong hope, I'm wishing death upon me
Don't wanna see, what I would or could be
Don't wannna be selfish, I just wanna be
BURIED, THAN UPSTAIRS THEY CAN LET ME HEAR IT
DOWN HERE FORGET THE THOUGHT OF KIDS AND MARRIAGE
THIS EXTREME ESCAPISM, IS TO HARD TO BARE
BECUZ OPENING YOUR EYES AND IT ISN'T THERE
INNTROVERSION AND DEPRESSION IS LIKE GIVIN SUICIDE A WEAPON
HOW I'MA LIVE, THIS SHIT DOESN'T CONSTITUTE AS A BLESSING
I THOUGHT I COULD TAKE IT, THIS SHIT AIN'T GREAT
GETTIN' THROWN RESTS AND I STILL CAN'T CATCH A BREAK