i wrote this shit way back in september but since some1 else posted a some shit wit the same name it reminded me of this... the other one that the homie posted is a lot better but i thought i'd post this anyway... it's decent but the verses could of been better... minez is deep 2 thou...

(intro)
u know i been askin' myself this question 4 years now... what is life? some parts are understood but theres still so much mystery within' it's history... all i wanna know is when i cross over will this life be missin' me?...

(chorus)
i wonder...
will i see tommarrow, will i see tonight, what will i see in another life//
it gets deeper and deeper til theres nothin' left to dig and your left in the dirt//
lookin' up, but see nothin' but darkness as you rest in the earth//
soon it'll all cave in, fall on u by the shovels, tossin' it over ya corpse//
they show no remorse, u might get a few flowers thrown down that'll wither and die//
u could be a snake that's slithers, otherwise an angel holdin' the sky//
when u cross over...

i wonder...
will i see heaven or i be thrown down the stairway, left burnin' in flames//
fuck it, that's how i want it, in my coffin' bed tossin & turnin', livin' the name//
cuz now what i did on earth, is how i feel, caught in a "blaze"//
no more rocky days and rough nights, all that talks to me these days is the light//
as i look up in the sky i watch it sparkle, or maybe i'll be left lookin' like char-col//
nobody knows... i'm crossin' over...

(verse 1)
if i could go... i'd go all the way, no doubt//
the hottest prospect in the game, check my intelect, what i'm about//
it used to be alcohol consumption, weed 2 keep high, that was the plan of my game//
get fucked up til my momz is cryin' tears like rain, standin' above my coffin' bed//
thinkin' of all the things i did and often said, shit i regret it wippin' the sweat off my head//
she could think she does, but she could never feel my pain//
sometimes i wonder why i wasted 2 years of my life burnt out like a candle flame//
but fuck it, it was fun at the time, soon i'll cross over like A.I.//
but in a different way and even in the heaven's i'mma stay high//
lookin' down, watchin' over all the souls trapped still floatin' around//
a small space, a body there confined to, w/ a heart just like mine, tears that cry and a mind to//
i wonder is my theory correct, is this hell on earth like mobb deep said//
and maybe we're better off restin' in are eternal sleep, countin' sheep, dead//
til god ressurects us in a different form, reincarnated and reborn//
hopin' the next life will be better then this one, prayin', it might//
spittin' these lyrics, makin' the text come alive that i write//
jumpin' off the pages, unscramble the letters in my mind//
take a walk in my shoes, look inside my mental chambers and see what u'll find//
everybody puts me on hold, left hangin' like remainders, in my time...

(chorus)

(verse 2)
i wonder...
will i smoke more blunts then a lil' bit wit biggie or ever see pac//
ever touch the things that they held, ridin' shotgun in the drop//
where the shots fired can't touch us, even if the exterior ain't bulletproof//
now in the clouds we're superior, shackled down but never tryna pull it lose//
why should we, it's "heaven" up here, litterly//
we look down sparkin' spliffs while drinkin' hennessey//
w/o every worryin' bout any types of cancers or diseases//
i fucked up my lungs on earth now miraculousy i can breath again//
and i'm still drinkin' but my livers fine w/ no more spots//
and all the holes are patched up in my mind and theres no more glocks//
on the block, waitin' to be scooped up like ice cream, by big pun//
cuz 'that's how we roll' it's like a nice dream layin' under the sun//
the supernova's so close, u can touch it from where i stand//
walk through it, press against it and still not burn ya hand... in heaven...

(chorus)

(outro)
i wonder... what's it gonna be like when i cross over, maybe i shouldn't even be thinkin' bout it, maybe i should just be enjoyin' my time here... but the thought still pops up from time to time... think about it... crossin' over...

(fades)

yeah it's from the heart... i used 2 wite alot of deep shit about life n death like this... i still do sometimes...

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yer it was dope, flowed well but was long as fuck, but cool to read. Peace