It's May 25, 2024, 06:02:15 AM
Now, I'm gonna say this 1st and foremost. This is some deep shit, but I felt like I had to let it out somewhere...So I'm 21. All in all, I think that I've led a somewhat good life. I was raised by my mom and grew up in Alaska. I had good influences growing up. However, now that I'm somewhat grown up, I look at the position that I'm at in life and I can honestly say that I'm not happy homies. My troubles stem from after the high school days. Back then, everything seemed perfect. I was oblivious of the concealed world of conformity that high school is. Don't get me wrong, I had a blast hanging out with all my friends, guys and girls alike. However, it wasn't until a year ago that I realized that world was a safe place that was "fun". It was a world without responsibility. A world where all you had to worry about was what you wore the next day to school, or what so and so thought about you, etc. I look back at it now, and I envy the fuck out of it. It sucks. This is where my problem comes in. The people that were closest to me back in those days of carelessness are still with me today. Cool right? That should be a good thing? Not necessarily. Those same people that were surrounded by me are the reason I created this thread. You guys ever feel like the people that are closest to you are the people, that in the end, are the people that bring you down? That is my current predicament. Every weekend, it's "Hey Evan, come take this shot" or, "Evan, take this beer bong". I try to step away and say no, but if i don't, i get shunned. I shouldn't care, but those friends from back in high school are like family to me. As I said earlier, my mom raised me. So those guys are like my other father, as silly as that sounds. I feel like if I don't hang with them and do the things that they do (which is only drink by the way) that I'm somehow letting them down. The thing is that all of my friends out of high school that I still hang out with, called "The Group", are all successful. They all hold steady jobs and live on their own. Me myself however, am not. I worked at Quiznos for the past year on and off. A lot of the on and offing had to do with drinking.So all in all, I made an executive decision: I plan to move in September out of Alaska to Sacramento with my dad. I feel this will be the best move for me. However, it's gonna suck leaving the people that have made me who I am. In the end though, my mind tells me that I need to. I will be back with my father, who is a very inspirational guy. This is my calling and I know I need to take it to become something in life. To everyone that actually read all the way through my spiel: thank you. I appreciate it beyond belief. I had to let all of this out...I was close to imploding haha. Thanks homies, and have a good night.Evan
Yeah man it sounds like you're headed in the right direction. And you should also be proud of yourself for being conscious of what goes on around you. I think you'll be just fine.But I know exactly what you're going through. When I was in high school, I had mad friends, always partying, hangin out and what not. Then I went away to college, but I was still coming home a couple weekends a month and I'd still kick it with all the homies that were still living in our home town. As the years went by, I went back to my hometown less and less. I was movin on, made new friends that were also going to college and actually doing something with their life, while most of the peeps that I went to high school w/ were still living in town, still doing the EXACT same shit we were doing when we were 16/17. And yeah they def hated on me for not kickin it w/ them. But here I am 26 years old, got a great career and shit, still moving on to bigger and better shit - I ain't even come close to peaking yet. And these cats are so pathetic, they're baggin the 17/18 year old broads cuz they're too imature for anyone older, gettin DUI's, doin drugs, makin minimum wage, and prolly got pennies in the bank (or less). And a couple of them look like they're 40 years old cuz all they do is drink and smoke everyday. These dudes peaked at 18 and it's all downhill from there.Whats that saying? If you lay with the dogs, you're bound to get fleas? You gots to cut these people out cuz all they're gonna do is drag you down.