Letter to my X-Girlfriend. Should I send it?

[infinite59]

(by the way, this is a different girl then the one I wrote about before on this board, this girl is actually an honest and good person, not the manipulating one I wrote about earlier)

Yo ya'll.... I broke up with this girl about two years ago, because I didn't give a fuck about anything then, and I was lost in confusion, it was a mistake, and I've been trying to talk her into going back out with me ever since.  She says we'll be friends and then doesn't return my phone calls, should I send this shit?......

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Ignoring me, forcing me to go more in-depth, but it's falling on deaf ears/
I'm desolate in isolation, kept from stating my feelings and fears/
I'm in solitary confinement, playing solitaire with myself, just me and no one else/
I'm playing the game with two decks, but the other cards aren't playing with me/
You throw me obstacles, but I keep playing till I win, or further play is impossible/
My cards are laid out on the table, I speak truth to you, but it never get through/

What are you?  hearing impaired?  Deaf? you aquired the lack of senses out of selfishness/
You refuse to hear anything less than 20 decibals of 1,800 vibrations per second/
Known as 'conductive deafness' but this is temporary and cureable in the future/
You require antibiotic therapy but first we'll look into the causes of your deafness/
Deafness can be caused by perforation of the eardrum or noice that's loud and sudden/
So it must of been that you subjected yourself to a boyfriend and were damaged by him?/
It came sudden at a young age, and instead of learning from it you became numb to it/
So what was once a cureable disease is now inexscapable, tell it to your grandkids/
It's called sensorineural deafness resulting in the inner parts of the ear/
Inner parts known to reach as deep as the heart, which has become hardened........

Still I try to stay positive in these hopeless times, and pretend to be blind/
Blind to the fact that I can't deny that you and I should get back together/
Blind to the fact that your reason for us not being a thing again is hollow/
Fuck tomarrow, trying to fix this bullshit is senseless, your going the same way you have been/
And there's nothing I can do but write you, so give me that in the least/
For me Please, just let me continue to speak my mind with a pad and pencil/
I can't give into the thought that I've lost someone that I love so much....

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[bLaDe]

damn thats dope!

yea send it to her, but cut out da insults n shyt, add sum mo deep shit in place of em... i mean u wanna make up wid her, not diss her....right?

Gud Luck!

 -{bLaDe}

[infinite59]

Too late ya'll.... she lives close by me, she drove by my apartment, so I called her on her cellphone and she said it was cool if I dropped it off.  I dropped off this rhyme, and a couple of previous ones.  Now I just wait and see what happens.  I believe in always telling the whole story, and she can take it or leave it.  Because if I hold something back now, eventually it will come out, you know, you can't hide the way you feel forever, my anger comes from her being a major part of my life and then ignoring me, I state that in the first line.

[Tanjential]

hey dude i wrote this to an ex-girlfriend and i recited it to Her one day at her house and she had a great reaction,out of respect to her i won't say what that was but i think You can use this

i call it Point Of You, a play on words because if You say it it sounds like "Point Of View" i titled it like tha because it's my point of view on her sort,You know...how i see her.....

I try to fight these feelings but the situation gets confounded
and no matter how many times i look into Your eyes I never cease to be astounded and dumbfounded
things like that amounted to be something i still can't control
i still love You with all of my heart and soul
I should be satisified with the mere knowledge of Your presence
just knowing You should supply effervescence
but yet i want You even though i don't deserve that
and i understand,from You, i probably won't get word back
on this expression
because i should just be content with Your friendship
incrassation of my desire is endless
i hate and love it that these feelings are so relentless
and that the smallest gesture from You can still leave me breathless
and thinking of You at night leaves me restless
bless-ed is Your essence
it's sweet wonderful YOU. No wonder I'm obsessive
Loving You i've come to see is something addictive
something that i just can't help but stick with
and in a good way You get my stomach shifted
when around You i might as well be intoxicated
why do things have to be so complicated?
Is it like that or is my mind behaving quirkily?
am i doing this to myself?inadvertently?
or is this purposely?
No, it's just a byproduct of Your inner and outer  beauty elevating too far
i've lost all desire for others,none are coming close to what You are
and Even though i know You can't react reciprocative
i still say Heaven lost it's greatest sweetest Flower when God let You live

good luck man,peace-Tanjint

[infinite59]

tight shit homie, peace

[Tha_Chill]

The only part I questioned was

"you aquired the lack of senses out of selfishness"

How was she being selfish?  You broke up with her and said it was because you "didn't give a fuck about anything".  Seems to me you were being selfish, not her.  Tight lyrics though, and the rest of the shit makes sense to say, just not the part I mentioned, unless it just didn't read right for me and you meant it another way.

[infinite59]

yeah your probably right, I should have changed that shit.  But where I got that from was over the past several months she'll just talk to me here and there and tell me if I ever need her call, when really she's gone in the wind when I got something to say....... I probably shouldn't have used it though