cant do both

[TraceOneInfinite Flat Earther 96']

embraced the oppurtunity to be in charge,
felt like I was living way large,
but shit man, got to forget bout that and move on,
deal with the situation as it really is even though its way wrong,
Cant look at imaginary situation and imagine its that
cause that shit only exists in my head not in actual fact,
so now how can I fuction in an environment such as this,
man this shit doesnt make sense its givin me fits
so now Im at the point I got to decide if its worth it
If I shud continue and go ahead and move forward
hmm I really dont know that a tough question
let me think about it cause I dont believe in learning another lesson
either I can do it or I cant
or maybe there is some level under which I can function
I think maybe I will just show up simple as that
cause thats about all I can do to be right an exact,
just show up simply put,
just show up and put one foot in front of other foot
just show up and forget all the discussion
cause all the discussion was back when things was hapennin u was wantin
so just show up man thats my only focus
just show up dogg, repeat it so u dont lose focus,
just show up if u gots nothin else to do,
just show up and let um know u know longer in charge
let down yur gaurd let down allusions of past resources
even though it really is most unfortunate