Celibacy

[EC]

I know what I’m missin out on
The good and the bad
I’ve had more bad than good
I’m not chasin no man
Saved myself for 9 years
No one gave a fuck
I still got treated like a miserable slut
I’ll never live down the affections of old
I know I’m just cheap
I don’t need to be told
I’d rather be cold less I warm to the lies
Fall for their games
Wool over my eyes
I seen through the disguise
But I musta been blind
Coz I still fell for more than 17 guys
Maybe I’m easy
Maybe I’m dumb
Maybe I’m simply a nobody bumb
What’s there to hope for in a man
What?
Protection?
I’m not seekin safety in flippant affection
I’m not settin nobody else up for the fall
I know I’m at risk
Don’t wanna hustle or stall
Shop shut
Except for the rape
I can’t stop it
Nobody cares so I’m best to just drop it
Nobody sees me as worth their respect
So fuck it
I’ll keep to myself to protect
Can’t beat the devils
But that don’t make me feel shame
I see life as a journey where they see a game
And I know they’ve in-store for me horror and pain
I’m no more than a plain Jane
Plus I’m insane
As if I’d keep spreading my legs in vain
Been almost 3 years since my last trifling fling
Knew it was a set up but I still fell for him
But now I’m back in my celibate ways
Can’t think of no man on earth that could sway me with games
I’m not looking for kudos
I’m content by myself
I’m satisfied
Despite the cards that’s been dealt
From the first to the last
It’s all in the past
I’m best to spend what times left watchin my ass