Author Topic: The Apology Better Be As Loud As The Disrespect (To WC)  (Read 132 times)

Ebony Bree Caple

The Apology Better Be As Loud As The Disrespect (To WC)
« on: January 11, 2023, 11:20:12 PM »
I donít know what to say
We all know Iím insane
I wish we could take it all back to the day
Before all the bullshit
Before all the rhymes
Before all the tears that fell from my eyes
But I canít
This is life
And I keep doing you wrong
So I guess Iím just gonna address it in song
I want the apology to be louder than all disrespect
I harbour no harms towards you
Please donít forget
Please know I was genuinely unwell
Like today
Whatíd you say?
Fuck it all to hell
Iím still hearing your voice and you sound just as confused as Iíve been for 12 years hallucinating the Blues
Youíve sung me like magic
Then youíve crossed me in spells
I was simply a fan
A fan thatís unwell
Iím trying to get the message across
That I do not condone any of the racist rot
And I tried to reach out which triggered me
Still
Iíll just keep trying and trying while Iím swallowing pills
Iíve crossed so many people because of my illness
Then my idols whoíve done nothing to provoke me
Iíll fill this
Whole damn page with adulation and praise but Iím pretty sure that too would come across as deranged
Am I supposed to just forget
Does that mean I donít care
Am I respecting your boundaries if I leave everything there
Should I continue to plead and state my case that I genuinely admire you and the episode was a mistake
And then where does that leave you
Would you be called a simp or weak or a C ---
I donít know how to navigate this
Iím still just as lost
As I was when you were the master and boss
Itís so crazy
I follow you online trying to gauge
If youíd actually keep me in a cage
Itís just my illness
All the voices
All the visuals
Perfume
It was just me all alone with a phone in a room
Iím trying to explain because I hold you in high esteem
Iím not concerned about shame or being tamed by a fiend
I donít believe any of the rubbish that I use to think real
I just wanna apologise
I donít want you to feel
like you have to assert yourself or defend your stance
I saw a pic about a father and son on your Instagram
He asked what a real man is and you said to him
I donít know son
Weíre kings
I felt so much guilt that you had to have that conversation
So I guess Iím just best to stick to procrastination

*Iíll post this on the Dub because Iíve Started to relapse.

I'm trying to apologize to WC
I'll add to this maybe in the future
Maybe when I can come up with something solid

STRUGGLING TO KEEP IT REAL IN A WORLD FULL OF FAKES
 

Dee Tha AK

Re: The Apology Better Be As Loud As The Disrespect (To WC)
« Reply #1 on: January 12, 2023, 03:33:36 AM »
Damn home you still on this shytt
 
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Ebony Bree Caple

Re: The Apology Better Be As Loud As The Disrespect (To WC)
« Reply #2 on: January 12, 2023, 12:52:36 PM »
Damn home you still on this shytt

I know
It's pathetic
I was just hearing voices so I wrote a poem to cope
I'm trying to learn to let this shit go
STRUGGLING TO KEEP IT REAL IN A WORLD FULL OF FAKES
 

Dee Tha AK

Re: The Apology Better Be As Loud As The Disrespect (To WC)
« Reply #3 on: January 12, 2023, 01:17:35 PM »
I know
It's pathetic
I was just hearing voices so I wrote a poem to cope
I'm trying to learn to let this shit go

Hate to say it but its for the better, its all in your mind... WC don't care about us bro
 

Ebony Bree Caple

Re: The Apology Better Be As Loud As The Disrespect (To WC)
« Reply #4 on: January 12, 2023, 01:25:37 PM »
Hate to say it but its for the better, its all in your mind... WC don't care about us bro

Honestly, I know Dub doesn't even register me but unfortunately I crossed a line and most days I can carry on but I started hearing voices and it all came back. Everybody knows I'm crazy. I just needed to vent.
STRUGGLING TO KEEP IT REAL IN A WORLD FULL OF FAKES
 

Dee Tha AK

Re: The Apology Better Be As Loud As The Disrespect (To WC)
« Reply #5 on: January 13, 2023, 04:44:17 AM »
Honestly, I know Dub doesn't even register me but unfortunately I crossed a line and most days I can carry on but I started hearing voices and it all came back. Everybody knows I'm crazy. I just needed to vent.

They're Crazy... Not you, its part of gaslighting
 
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