The Apology Better Be As Loud As The Disrespect (To WC)

[Ebony Bree Caple]

I don’t know what to say
We all know I’m insane
I wish we could take it all back to the day
Before all the bullshit
Before all the rhymes
Before all the tears that fell from my eyes
But I can’t
This is life
And I keep doing you wrong
So I guess I’m just gonna address it in song
I want the apology to be louder than all disrespect
I harbour no harms towards you
Please don’t forget
Please know I was genuinely unwell
Like today
What’d you say?
Fuck it all to hell
I’m still hearing your voice and you sound just as confused as I’ve been for 12 years hallucinating the Blues
You’ve sung me like magic
Then you’ve crossed me in spells
I was simply a fan
A fan that’s unwell
I’m trying to get the message across
That I do not condone any of the racist rot
And I tried to reach out which triggered me
Still
I’ll just keep trying and trying while I’m swallowing pills
I’ve crossed so many people because of my illness
Then my idols who’ve done nothing to provoke me
I’ll fill this
Whole damn page with adulation and praise but I’m pretty sure that too would come across as deranged
Am I supposed to just forget
Does that mean I don’t care
Am I respecting your boundaries if I leave everything there
Should I continue to plead and state my case that I genuinely admire you and the episode was a mistake
And then where does that leave you
Would you be called a simp or weak or a C ---
I don’t know how to navigate this
I’m still just as lost
As I was when you were the master and boss
It’s so crazy
I follow you online trying to gauge
If you’d actually keep me in a cage
It’s just my illness
All the voices
All the visuals
Perfume
It was just me all alone with a phone in a room
I’m trying to explain because I hold you in high esteem
I’m not concerned about shame or being tamed by a fiend
I don’t believe any of the rubbish that I use to think real
I just wanna apologise
I don’t want you to feel
like you have to assert yourself or defend your stance
I saw a pic about a father and son on your Instagram
He asked what a real man is and you said to him
I don’t know son
We’re kings
I felt so much guilt that you had to have that conversation
So I guess I’m just best to stick to procrastination

*I’ll post this on the Dub because I’ve Started to relapse.

I'm trying to apologize to WC
I'll add to this maybe in the future
Maybe when I can come up with something solid

[Dee Tha AK]

Damn home you still on this shytt

[Ebony Bree Caple]

Damn home you still on this shytt

I know
It's pathetic
I was just hearing voices so I wrote a poem to cope
I'm trying to learn to let this shit go

[Dee Tha AK]

I know
It's pathetic
I was just hearing voices so I wrote a poem to cope
I'm trying to learn to let this shit go

Hate to say it but its for the better, its all in your mind... WC don't care about us bro

[Ebony Bree Caple]

Hate to say it but its for the better, its all in your mind... WC don't care about us bro

Honestly, I know Dub doesn't even register me but unfortunately I crossed a line and most days I can carry on but I started hearing voices and it all came back. Everybody knows I'm crazy. I just needed to vent.

[Dee Tha AK]

Honestly, I know Dub doesn't even register me but unfortunately I crossed a line and most days I can carry on but I started hearing voices and it all came back. Everybody knows I'm crazy. I just needed to vent.

They're Crazy... Not you, its part of gaslighting