Thru these eyes.

[Inspectah]

Verse 1:

I want to tell you my life, to a further extent.
Everything written here scripted as a truthful event.
So where can i start, first sit down and be willing.
To listen to these words, as i start at the beginning.
I skip a few years, and backtrack to a teenager.
Its a shame a kidda 16'teen, coulda witnessed it later.
I had a happy home, like any other kid in the street.
Then it got taken from me swooped from under my feet.
Too confused to see myself through, got caught in the middle.
Tryna find loose ends to answers like solving a riddle.
It was too late, i'd lost the bond that created me.
I fell into a gaze of sadness, like pain had sedated me.


Verse 2:

Now i lay awake from a bad dream, awoken calling their name.
This repeated on as i put my head on the pillow falling again.
I was in my own world, walking alone in the dark trying to get out.
The thought of returning home alone, just stressed me out.
Mum tried keeping me in for company as she got lonely.
Dad kept his distance while my ear waited for him to fone me.
I couldnt see a friend without being dragged home on my bike.
They took turns to ave words about each other whenever they like.
Each had to get their own back thru telling me about their issues.
When they left to get their revenge, i grabbed another tissue.


Chorus:

I've experienced so much pain, i wrote down a list-ful.
But i survived and came out smiling coz i stayed wish-ful.
When i was seperated from a smile coz sadness hit-thru.
I've grown up to live in war, to the peaceful times... i miss you.


Verse 3:

I've grown up now...come out of the struggle still struggling.
But now i've found this teddy, which at night i now stay cuddling.
Im not longer lonely, tryna find that someone to be their.
I've got stubble coming, and my teddy has three strands of hair.
Closing my eyes takes me back to the days when i was weaker.
Seeing the days when i wanted my mother, now i dont need her.
We dont get along no more, i was driven away by her evil-eyes.
Coz she sat down stairs ignoring me, and all my peaceful cries.
She has her own life now, so does my dad and i have my own.
I cherish the times i have without people as i've always been alone.
No one has made me see anything different, i helped myself.
I survived a struggle, the pain and protected what i felt.

Verse 4:

Independant without a need to ask for a favour.
Dads going steady, mums change but what made her?
She accepts her errors and just makes me face-them.
But i wont accept it, at this time i hate her and hate-them.
3 years i've lived without a dad at home, i could live without her.
All she's gotta do is keep treating me wrong, and i'll forget all about her.
Now finally, old enough to have a tattoo on the right side-of-me.
Now joining the army to become a soldier with so much pride-in-me.
I've been broken hearted from relationships but i can deal with that.
Coz all they got todo is close the door for me, and i wont be coming back.
So now what i got left to say, apart from i've only lived 3 years.
Because the old me died in depression and drowned in his tears.
One day i just clicked, toughened up and moved on with my life.
You only live once, so i've got to get my head together and make things right.

Chorus:

I've experienced so much pain, i wrote down a list-ful.
But i survived and came out smiling coz i stayed wish-ful.
When i was seperated from a smile coz sadness hit-thru.
I've grown up to live in war, to the peaceful times... i miss you.