Fear

[infinite59]

What's Beef/
Beef is when you need two gats to go to sleep/
Huh Big/
Well what's Beef really feel me/
Beef is really cause we are all scared see/
It's the fear within me/
I'm scared because it was how I was raised to be/
It's how in the fuck I learned my ABC's/
Cause if I didn't/
I'd be outcasted and sent to punishment/
Lock myself in the metaphorical closet/
I couldn't get out of/
Because I was too scared of being blasted/
Blasted back within it/
So inside the confines I'd develop my own life/
So limited and more fragile then fake smiles/
So easily transparent, we're all scared of what's hidden/
Tired of being scared/
Hey who in the hell cares/
we do, we do/
What is it that I got to prove/
I'm on the move like the wave currents/
But can move no farther then the shore line/
Out for mine, I grab the nine/
But a gat doesn't erase fear in your mind/
Only the physical form/
While our dome slowly deteriorates/
And we sleep in the bed that we make/
Why do we do things out of fear/
Our first mistake was how we we're raised/
How must I escape/
Like an ugly catipillar drownin in it's miserable state/
We fail to properly envision the other side of our fait/
Is to become a butterfly and fly away/
Strap on these wings, take the shackles off my feat/
I'm ready to see past my physical screen/
And dare to dream/
You only see a portion/
Your view is too distorted/
So you abort the mission/
But the natural proggresion of man is dependant on struggle/
Gather up in the huddle/
We clasp hands and pray/
And thank the Lord for a new day/
Peace.

[infinite59]

A bitch got me in fear/
Afraid of the bitch flying away/
Fuck it/ I'll pay for your plane ticket/
And fuck everyman on the plane you can get with/
Bitch I don't give a fuck/
Fear doesn't govern me, and fuck lust/
Thin line between fear and respect/
Love and lust, we get signals crossed/
Fearing the outcome/
Had me lost in more control drama's than recovering alchoholics/
Holler if you hear me/
Bitches that scare me/
Afraid of what emotions will do/
The power of me over you/
Or is it the other way around/
We drown ourselves in self pity/
But a man is judged by his piety/................

My fuckin inconsiderate mom walking around the fuckin house
With no fuckin clothes on/
This is the fuckin last time
She fuckin pulls that shit
That's fuckin sacriligous/
Like Noah's kid/
did, and look what happened to him/
The worst of sins/
Don't do that fuckin shit ever again/

I'm not scared anymore/
So grow up and become a whore/
Be all that you can be bitch/ be a groupie/
You were never mine to begin with/ just a dime with big tits/
Well my intuition see's right through it/
Escapin like we're gettin high to remove us/
From pain overtakin my brain/
Insane thoughts a product of tension/
So do what you want/
It's all a front and an illusion/
I'm moving with the force of the sun's penetrable illumine/
Illiminate my senses, source of energy so immense that/
I'm back to the beggining, origional name and station/

[infinite59]

Just wanted to get some thoughts off my chest...... thanks for reading if you did, I wasn't paying attention to flow or anything, just writin down what was in my head.

[infinite59]

The whole picture gets clearer/
Dreamin of a bitch till memories seem near to me/
Bitches name was Cassie/
Thought she was attracted to me/
More than I was her/
But she was wrong/
I just put a little bit better front on/
But I was both enamored with her beauty/
And scared of the damage that she could do to me/
Wreckless without abandon I'd move in quicker than lightnin flashin/
Backing up, not to be scene/
Wanted to make the hit, go over clean/
And dream and let the moment live out it's existence/
And fill stress filled days with fantasies and stimulants/
It was a test of my will, felt I was bad enough to feel/
All the ill's, cause a brother was down enough to kill/
What's really real, ain't what we think/
There's more than meets the eye lying naked/
Sunshine is really darkness on the other side of the planet/
I didn't understand that her elusiveness made me panic/
And fear moved my existence further to strive to seem normal/
It's a deadly game I was playing to lose/
Confusion was due to my limited vision/
Grafted and crafted by fearful upbringing/
I guess I always had it in me/
There waiting for the taking/
Lord forgive me/
Hearts grow empty when they're void of truth/
Loose cannon's we try to control/
And aim and fire at our target's/
But it's beyond the capabilities of man/
Why must we fight in battles we can't win/
Demandin second, third and forth chances/
Man, just let that shit go/
More over, she keeps gettin more over/
Fear and anger biulds/
A spot that needed to be field/
The Lord prophesized beautifully/
That it could be that we want something that is bad for us/
Lost in a poisonous lust, a broken crush/
Fire I had to touch/
Dangerous where anger can lead us/
When physical features are our teachers/
We fail to see the underlying truth/
Or maximum potential/
Or the well we are falling in to hit rock bottom/
Till we there, and can't see the outer hemisphere/
It couldn't be more clear to me now/
But how did it get this way?
If you take away the power which is fear/
And tell her to go where you want him to/
Inbetween the thighs, I hope it feels nice/
Do what you wanna do/
Now you have nothing over me/
Go ahead and shoot/
Point a gat at my skull/
I'll tell you to cock it back and pull/
That's my fucking motto/
Can't hold off God's will/
It is all as inevitable as the full moon setting/
Sun rising in the morning was never suprising/
Finally realizing so let the truth be told/

['Illicit']

damn dawg, must have ONE itching hand there lol.  3 rhymes like that in 30 mins?? not bad, really not bad.  real content too, I felt a lot of em.   the flow doesnt suck either.    basically, that was ill.

keep blessing.

peace

[KVB]

That was some dope rhymes... poetical power... keep blessing the board

Peace

[ROCCY]

That was some dope rhymes... poetical power... keep blessing the board

Peace

[ToNe1904]

damn, good shit Infinite...

[doggmastah]

Tight shit! As allways, you came out with nothin' but staraight dope linez! I wish i could do the samelol.

PEACE!

[infinite59]

Wow.... thanks for the props ya'll.... I really appreciate it.. Much props and respect in return.....1

[PakiGangsta]

damn, thats nice......i feel u bro.....thats one of da fine rhymes i've heard, strait outa ya mind............

eZ

[bLaDe]

yo homie that was dope, deep shit, keep blessin tha board, pz

 -{bLaDe}