MODIFIED PART TWO: Lies, Deciet, Falacy,

[infinite59]

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I used to have this bitch that manipulated the shit out of me/
I was a skydiver descending to the earth and landing on the turf without a parachute/
Falling in love and landing face first on the pavement, with no explanation/
I was skating on ice so thin, wanting to have sex without the skins/
Hoping to drop a seed in the earth so she'd be forever needing me/
Cause she decieved me into believing that I was the problem/
I'd confront her about the lies and she'd disapear into the night/
She'd act like nothing ever happened few weeks later/
and I'd say to her "fuck it" just want to be together/
But soon came more stormy weather, more fiction, more fighting/
Like Talib Kweli 'I was wondering when I lost that magic, tried to grab it/
But I never had it in the first place', only lies, she put on a false face/
How could I waste my life on a bitch this full of shit? I'd ask myself/
Only to realize it was because I met her young when I had no knowledge of self/
Her first trick was in getting me to question my ways/
To get me to trade my old life for a new one like it was the Stock exchange/
Thinking she defined me, she must have injected a disease in me like Glaucoma I was blind/
Searching for peace of mind only to realize I had to say goodbye/
And never look back and that's where I'm at right now/
She took advantage of my youth, sometimes you win but you really lose/
She was everything I ever wanted at first, but ended up a curse that would cause me much pain/
so I fill those thoughts in my brain back up with knowledge/
and push her memory to the side like the fourth planet/
So like Mars I come back twice as bright as the star of Sirius/
and take the blinders off my eyes her personality was only a mask putting her true self in disquise/
I take it off for everyone to see and what you see beneath is a life rich in deciet/
Elevating my higher self stomping her with my feet she's beneath me/
our relationship now consists of me dropping bars to vent my anger/
Going no further, my main purpose is to dismiss the bitch that on my heart commited murder.

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I should have never tried to get anything out of you in the first place/
Your voice was so weak I couldn't reach you like the wall above me is the limit/

I'd try to speak and you didn't want to hear it, your not detecting sound due to deafness/
Hard of hearing anything more than 20 decibels of 20 vibrations per second/

I subjected you to thoughts and feelings far more deep than you were used to/
Provin' the opposite to be true I left you confused because I had nothing to loose/
Yet so much to gain from it, we both lost because we stayed numb to what we really wanted/
You weren't there for me when I would plummet, so you won't see me hit the summit/
So when my highest level is obtained I'll look down upon you with shame/

My memories will be the same as before only remembering that you closed the door/
I knocked a thousand times and went unanswered but I leave you with these last words/
So they can be heard in your sleep in your dreams I whisper asking if you still remember/
What you had that was common to no one else but yourself/
Verbally formable character in and of itself, your existence preceded it/
But apparantly I'm not fit to express my feelings no matter how bad I feel your needing it/
I plead with you to slow down and reminiss on blissful occurences everlasting/
Your essence has been lost and forgotten in time and I'm only one no matter how pasionate/
I'm trying to capture it but it falls through my hand like a grain of sand in an our glass/
'Sometimes the world would rather pass you by then see what it is that makes you cry'/
2pac said it and I won't deny what applies to me, my heart is still at peace even while in pieces.

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[maxi-padz]

dat shyt tight as fuck dawg...
im feelen dat
peace
~1~

[infinite59]

thanks patna

[infinite59]

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I should have never tried to get anything out of you in the first place/
Your voice was so weak I couldn't reach you like the wall above me is the limit/
I'd try to speak and you didn't want to hear it, your not detecting sound due to deafness/
Hard of hearing anything more than 20 decibels of 20 vibrations per second/
I subjected you to thoughts and feelings far more deep than you were used to/
Provin' the opposite to be true I left you confused because I had nothing to loose/
Yet so much to gain from it, we both lost because we stayed numb to what we really wanted/
You weren't there for me when I would plummet, so you won't see me hit the summit/
So when my highest level is obtained I'll look down upon you with shame/
My memories will be the same as before only remembering that you closed the door/
I knocked a thousand times and went unanswered but I leave you with these last words/
So they can be heard in your sleep in your dreams I whisper asking if you still remember/
What you had that was common to no one else but yourself/
Verbally formable character in and of itself, your existence preceded it/
But apparantly I'm not fit to express my feelings no matter how bad I feel your needing it/
I plead with you to slow down and reminiss on blissful occurences everlasting/
Your essence has been lost and forgotten in time and I'm only one no matter how pasionate/
I'm trying to capture it but it falls through my hand like a grain of sand in an our glass/
'Sometimes the world would rather pass you by then see what it is that makes you cry'/
2pac said it and I won't deny what applies to me, my heart is still at peace even while in pieces.

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