It's May 25, 2024, 07:09:22 AM
That's cool; I know confession can be a powerful thing, it's like talking about your most personal things to someone.
Man, when your mom DOES die, you'll feel stuff you won't even understand. You'll literally, in every sense of the word, go crazy, and you'll realize you're out of your mind. For instance, when my dad died, I kept thinking he was gonna show up alive the first few nights, even after I had seen his dead body. Well; I knew, the whole time, that that was impossible; he was dead, he couldn't show back up... but to me, it was impossible for him to be dead, too. So I was torn between it. It's wild, I can't explain it, you just have to have been through it... but all in all... I can tell you... It's not as bad as you think it'll be. It's like getting hit in the face with a snowball. Hurts really, UNBELIEVABLY bad for a second, but then your world changes and your whole life is differerent. It's like a pain that you grow to know and not give a sh*t about. I still feel the same loss almost 2 years later as I did the first day he was gone... but I don't mind it now. It's strange, I can't explain it, you'll see... but it won't be as bad as you'd imagined. I used to tell my friends (2 years ago) that I would die if my dad did. Wasn't that bad...