Fear they may pull rank

[TraceOneInfinite Flat Earther 96']

Maybe it's because I don't want to live up to the task/
Which is why I'm afraid to let them call a spade black/
Rather act below the radar and far from their expectations/
Because their expectations have failed me in so many ways, and/
I'd rather just be free in anonymity it's understandable/
as long as I'm able to see past fables and continue to be free/
and not fall victim and let their perception of me become reality/
But how do I do that and still maintain my level of anonymity/
and still maintain the levels in my brain, it seems challenging/
I guess one has to know their heart and trust in that/
But on the coldest nights you look inside and only see the black/
So how to keep the vision clear in a case of consistency/
When society desires to psychologically murder me/
Trust and faith in self is the way, I know it must be/
going forward that's the key, I think, but doubts creep/
I battle for 2011 in the forefront of my mind is where I must keep/
it's questions and stay expectant for answers to find me