It's May 02, 2024, 02:22:00 PM
im catholic an i question tha existance of god a lot, my prays have never been answered, i used to pray everynight nutin life altering would happen to my family, they would all stay healthy, tha day after thanksgiven 96 my dad was changin tha breaks on his van, suptin wasnt comin off in tha wheel well, that second he leaned under tha jack gave out, he was supportin tha jack on his back, he wound up paralyzed from tha waste down, he was a plumber after tha accident after 15 years of ownin his own business he went out of business, we became poor an started to receive food stamps an survived off of social security an my moms salery as high school cafeteria salery. There marrage went down tha tubes an my mom began to cheat on him, he knows it, even though they still live 2gether there pretty much seperated. My dad takes enough medication to knock a hourse out, an tha funny thing is that it dont work anymore, he is in so much pain that he spends most of tha time in bed now. I have very few friends b/c most people who i considered to be my best friends all turned there back on me on one way or another, i see everything else every1 else has an wonder why i have to live this life of shit, my life has very little joy in it so why should i believe in God has he done for me.P.S. i know some1 will say that god was watchin over my dad when his van fell on him b/c he should of been dead, he should of died an if he lived tha doctors said there was a 90% he would be brain dead, some1 will stay i should be thankful that he is still alive an not brain dead but tha question i have is why did something like this have to happen to my dad, a good guy with a wife an 3 kids to support, why should i believe in god when there is so little happiness in my life. Hell i used to go to church every sunday, i would go to fuckin religion, what did all that do for me, nutin
I'm a Christian and I know God exists and is with me