It's May 05, 2024, 05:56:43 PM
I guess it hit me last night, when i asked for a raise at work. After askin several times about it an be lead to believe it was only a matter of time they told me they cant give it to me b/c business is so bad. It was than I realized nutin ever goes my way, i have few positives in my life, very few things bring me happiness. I realize i am going know where in life, b/c of my grades, i just didnt give a fuck about school, a smart kid that just underacheived. I dont know what i didn wrong, maybe it was that i convinced myself school was useless or tha desperate attempt for attention an actin like an idiot on purpose just for some cheap laughs an than we people called me an idiot i started to believe. I have very few friends, I dont want any b/c of tha fact every1 i considered my best friend pretty much ditched me or stabed me in tha back in some way or another. So Why bother gettin friends when its just goin happen again. And when it comes to girls, if i can quote Kane, "tha only time you had pussy was when pussy had you", i aint even kissed a fuckin girl, they dont even adknowledge my exsitance, but hey its my fault cuz im too shy an to much of bitch to even talk to a decent lookin girl. My parents are seperated an my dad is always in severe pain an he is gettin a surgrey to try an rid himself of it but if that dont work i dont he has to much time left. There's a lot of little shit that makes me feel this way bein poor is one of them, like crooked i said, "i hope i can find some happiness to breathe again", i aint surcidle but i do wish i would die, its kinda funny thing, last year durin health class we were studyin suicide an we were talkin about what are some signs of a suicidle person about 75% of stuff applied to me. Anyways i just thought i let ya'll know cuz i got nutin better to do, it just feels like i did something wrong to deserve this life, i did nutin wrong an yet i have to suffer for it, im lonely as fuck, i hate life wit a passion, i just feel like i have nothin to live for. If any of ya'll feel bad about yourselves, just think, atleast im not that bitch tom
i aint surcidle but i do wish i would die
Church ain't the way forward these dayz. Also, alcohol, like he said, does help
When I get down homie, music is what I turn to. It helps me so much.
if you go to a party and have a couple drinks and let yourself go you'll probably have a real good time and really enjoy yourself...if you're lucky enough to pick up a girl, it's a bonus...just go out and have some fun, wake up happy you woke...you gotta have things to look foward to, peace.oh yeah, and really listen to music, even smoke a joint and relax, don't stress so much, peace.
well tha thing is, i dont get invited to partys
yes tom, let trauma lead you into the cult of all cults, to a place where you are baptized before you have a chance to give your side on whether or not you want to be part of that group. look at most people that go to church, they are totally gased.