half forgotten shit i posted on cubes website

[BONeZ]

back in the day they used to call me bonez
skinny lil muthafucker holdin her own
smoked trees like it was christmas
till i tripped now im the skitzest
stacked on 30k kicked the habit
back to business
had a score to settle with the vested heavy metal
they head bang
i bang wutang
whistlin like a tea kettle
messages like metaphors
celibate whores and states of war
garunteed 2 years of peace
rest assured within the law
sick of the corruption
fuck the introductions
less ya wanna meet ya maker
keep ya paper
duck down productions
i've been insane
deranged
sick
its twisted what you claims slick
fuck the gangs, games, fame and strange shit
im layin a claim to to true acclaim bitch
everyone wanna be the baddest
addictted to madness
amass as much cash as you can stash then dash
greeds king
no time for gladness

cant remember anymore but its tired so who cares....

[BONeZ]

some would say im lucky cos i got no memories of these sick dicks
specially when theres young men and women being shot and raped in braod daylight by gangs and shit
some would say i got it easy cos i got a roof over my head
dont have to give up the pussy to know the comforts of a warm bed
some would say i should be grateful for the government benefits i recieve
i agree its alot better than giving a yes sir no sir thanks and please
on some shitty ass job where you get treated like a dog just for tryin to earn an honest wage
id rather be certified crazy and deranged for $800 every 14 days
some say i deserve this twisted shit like i was born to be abused
the same delsuional cunt wouldnt be saying that if he found himself in my shoes
some say im a waste of a woman
cos im saving all my goodness for god
thats the same muthafucka who'd tell me to sell it then call it a womans job
some claim to know when this started
like i set myself up in 2008
ill say the same thing to you as id say to them
by 08 it was already too late
some say i should just accept it
look to a man for protection and bow down
i say i got to much respect for a real man even if such a man could be found
instead they say try and defeat us
as if id waste anymore precious time
i wanna learn what i can then go to heaven
you can burn for all eternity for your shit
i resign
from life, lust, envy, love, heartache, struggle and loss
i give a fuck if your just taking orders
i got no respect of you or your boss
if i suffer due to evils these devils desire to afflict me with
ill rely on the glory and mercy of god to give me the strength i need to live
im not asking for help im not feeding anyone else into this mess you dare call a game
im not doubling the stakes and acting all fake by desiring the riches and fame
some say im weak cos i cant stop it
i say im one person alone
i might have made a lil bit of a difference by helping others to recognise whats going on
some say this must be my purpose
like the only potential ive got
is to be victimized and demoralized and to loose the fucking plot
i know my value as a human being
im not responsible for what others believe
so be careful bout putting a price on life less you end up being someone like me......

[BONeZ]

just a lil is never enough
i used to be generous but then i got hurt too much
so im savin it all
im not givin it up
in the hope that some dope wont treat me like a slut
i know what im missin out on
the good and the bad
good lovin for hours and the respect of a man
the brake up to make up
behind closed doors
the freaky
the average
and the shit that leaves ya wantin more
the quiet
the passionate
low key creepin or loud
the soft shit
the rough stuff
the ups and the downs
the innocent
the dirty
in control or plain weak
straight up or sideways
the tricks and the treats
the type to have ya talkin dirty or makin no sound at all
from the bed to the kitchen to the floor to the walls
been there done that
but in the end it dont appeal
to waitin on heaven and the way god makes me feel
9 years of keepin it dont even justify
10 years of being easy and livin a lie
so i'll save it
keep my promise to the most high
and hope thats enough to get me through the pearly gates when i die

[BONeZ]

i could wake up to a nightmare
from which there's no escape
chained and bound by bonds so foul and strong i wont be able to brake em or shake em or feign indifference or talk my way out of a reality so close to hell on earth that id be left without a doubt about the evils so perverse that persist within the communities that we live
everything can bought or sold or wagered or hunted like a pig
there's no end to the levels of corruption in society
its all about take and give
i dont wanna take it cos its unacceptable but i cant give up so i try to live
try to stay calm
disarm them with integrity and knowledge as they try to palm me off as sorry and ignorant and gullible and weak
i dont wanna accept their insulting insinuations as that's just another path that leads to defeat
so i choose meek
i dont want your respect or admiration
i dont wanna fall for your infamy
im not interested in your defamation or procrastinatin bout who what where or when
in the end were all accountable
so until then
i say fuck you
fuck friends
fuck family
fuck money
fuck the system
i dont even miss em
used it all against me
and just like you
those are all the ways one could play at defense against you and the shit you do
i know you got love, respect and desire
they're just weaknesses to a man who's tryin to build an empire thats undefeatable
and so mighty it shines in everyones eyes
or the type that tries to creep on the low
puttin out a false persona to profit
put on a show
then kick back and act like we dont know
the real you
the true rule
the only thing you got going for you
is fake ass fuckery and all types of bullshit
get rich quick
you'd rather die tryin to get a quick bit
than put in the man hours and man power it takes to create a nation
thats founded on regularities that improve rather than adopt demonstations of degradation and destruction
you dont need instruction
you need dedication
stead of sittin round hatin but not doin shit
you could talk bout it
but intead you spit
that wack shit
like you'd hit em up then just quit
what goes round comes round in all kinds of fashions ya trick