Author Topic: I Have An Unhealthy Obsession With WC 🙏 (Read 417 times)

Ebony BONeZ · « **on:** August 22, 2024, 09:58:35 PM »

Please forgive this nonsense 🙏
It's just because I've been hallucinating Dub since I was 29
I'll be 42 next month
The problem really lies with the fact that I abused him in 2021 due to my hallucinations and I still hallucinate him
I know he's not fond of me - actually he probably despises me
It's just that most days I hear his voice
Constant commentary
Criticism
Sometimes he's loving and comical and my therapist said I can keep those voices
Strange..... it wasn't until 2022 that the hallucinations drove me to explore his discography
I heard Wet Dream and love the concept but felt intimidated because of the racist nature of some of my abuse towards him online
I listened to Low Profile and wondered when he turned Gangsta
I listen to The M.A.A.D. Circle and you know that rhyme about the brother dating a blonde haired, blue eyed chick..... that made me wonder if any of my sexual hallucinations were extremely offensive to him
Then we get to mid 90's and Westside Connection and he's a straight menace and I wonder if he's either casual about everything I've said or hard core
Was I hallucinating when he reached for me in the crowd in 2010 after what I thought was a teeny tiny intimate moment when we locked eyes
Did he talk about me to Cube..... his closest associate and another rap icon I've hallucinated in the past
I consider myself extremely fortunate that Dub didn't seek revenge
Will these WC voices go away like the Cube and Daz delusions
Does he have ANY empathy for me..... because it's a cut throat world and so many people are so deserving
I had my antipsychotic injections today 💉
Hopefully the voices will fade until next fortnight
But I really wish I could do something to earn his forgiveness
Then I think about the history of prejudice and how some things are unforgivable and we've been turning a blind eye to injustice for centuries
Anyway
I value him
And I don't want to disrespect him again
I just hope his voice isn't replaced with something worse like the Nazi voices and the torture voices
My WC voices haven't threatened me since last year when they said he and his wife would put me in a cage and electrocute me with a cattle prod

Soopafly DPGC · « **Reply #1 on:** September 30, 2024, 02:20:23 PM »

But you acknowledge that the voice is just some mental manifestation that uses a voice that sounds like WC. You know it's not really WC telling you these things....so not sure why you are bringing the real WC into this.

TraceOneInfinite · « **Reply #2 on:** October 11, 2024, 02:01:04 AM »

...I know how it feels... I have hallucinations of Daz constantly pressuring me to "rise up and be a G" --- in some such hallucinations he even passes me the gat and tells me itz on and pressures me to do some gangsta shit. I know it's unhealthy.

Ebony BONeZ · « **Reply #3 on:** October 20, 2024, 10:50:56 PM »

Quote from: Soopafly DPGC on September 30, 2024, 02:20:23 PM

But you acknowledge that the voice is just some mental manifestation that uses a voice that sounds like WC. You know it's not really WC telling you these things....so not sure why you are bringing the real WC into this.

What you're saying is very accurate and I have no arguments
It's a matter of neuroplasticity
I need to form new neural pathways through practising healthy coping skills to override my old beliefs
Doable

Ebony BONeZ · « **Reply #4 on:** October 26, 2024, 03:04:44 PM »

Quote from: TraceOneInfinite Flat Earther 96' on October 11, 2024, 02:01:04 AM

...I know how it feels... I have hallucinations of Daz constantly pressuring me to "rise up and be a G" --- in some such hallucinations he even passes me the gat and tells me itz on and pressures me to do some gangsta shit. I know it's unhealthy.

I think you should look into therapy, Infinite ♾️