Life is so good and wonderful (or not)

[TraceOneInfinite]

The world is such a great place.  There are so many beautiful women.  There is all this great music everywhere and it never seems to run out.  It's been recorded and archived so we can listen and enjoy it anytime we want.  God has painted this world with beautiful sunrises, sunsets, and pleasant afternoon breeze, one can enjoy sipping on a lemonade and all the great and wonderful products the free market has produced for us that are readily at our disposal at the click of a button.   

Just look at the baseball field, the baseball diamond.  The genius of the journalists and sports writers to even call it a baseball "diamond".  There are so many intelligent and thoughtful people in this world that come up with great ideas and phrases that capture the mind and imagination.  The Royals have played so well this year.  The general manager went out and got some really great players, and I had the great joy of experiencing it all twice in person this summer, and then following them each day to keep up with their progress as a team throughout the season.

Lord Jammar, I mean what a brilliant guy.  He really sees through things, and the guy has been around since the 80's, he even appeared in Oz which was an excellent show.  He's done and experienced it all. 

And look at these guys from the Dogg Pound.  What great guys, Daz and Kurupt.  I mean, the kind of music, and styles, they were producing in 1995 was really a peek in civilization. 

And back to the female and all her glory.  The softness and the balance of the testosterone energy that a male carries--that is balanced by the placement of females on this earth as angelic beings that have been placed here to give the world peace and tranquility, and an abundance of beauty that is infinite and one can behold this beauty in the eyes of a woman and in the shape of her form, and it even emenates from her whole being and spirit.

What a great and beautiful world we live in.  It's really like the song, "and i think to myself what a wonderful world."   

All the great works of art and literature and music that have been created to give us inspiration.  But even the simiplicity of a good talk, or relevant ideas expressed by a human being.  That one can listen to and gain knowledge and inpsiration from.  Like the great Bentinho Massaro, this guy is an amazing guru on the scene over the last several years and the man is a vessel of knowledge, and wisdom, and a well of positivity that never runs dry.

All the music that was created in the mid 90's which society had reached a great peak is in such an overabundance that one could spread it out over a millenium and still have excess. 

The great Michael Jordan, and Dennis Rodman, and Scottie Pippen.  What a magnificent trio of athletic excelllence and character.  3 stars being aligned in the sky to form the triangle of Tex Winter and overseen by the greek Socrates and Plato mind of the great Phil Jackson. 

[Sccit]

so does this mean you will cancel your “suicide at 50” plan?

[TraceOneInfinite]

so does this mean you will cancel your “suicide at 50” plan?

Well I'm 42 so I'm not gonna re-evaluate a lifelong plan just because I've had a few decent weeks.  I may re-evaluate it in like June though.

[Sccit]

Well I'm 42 so I'm not gonna re-evaluate a lifelong plan just because I've had a few decent weeks.  I may re-evaluate it in like June though.

re-evaluate deez nuts on ya chin

[TraceOneInfinite]

re-evaluate deez nuts on ya chin

 

[Sccit]

 

[TraceOneInfinite]

It's been a good month.  My first good month since the mask mandates started in July 2020. 

I went all September without thinking about my plan to kill myself at the age of 50, or thinking everyone hates me, or without thinking about past mistakes, how and why I broke from family many years ago, and shit like that.

I had only a couple episodes where I'd had something bad happen to me in the day and it took me over 24 hours to forget about it.  That was the only negative for me in the month of September.  Like for example, let's say something bad happened to me on a Thursday and it took me till Saturday to finally forget about it.  That happened 2-3 times this month.  So hoping to clean that up in October.  If I can clean up that aspect then I will really be leveling up.

 

[Sccit]

It's been a good month.  My first good month since the mask mandates started in July 2020. 

I went all September without thinking about my plan to kill myself at the age of 50, or thinking everyone hates me, or without thinking about past mistakes, how and why I broke from family many years ago, and shit like that.

I had only a couple episodes where I'd had something bad happen to me in the day and it took me over 24 hours to forget about it.  That was the only negative for me in the month of September.  Like for example, let's say something bad happened to me on a Thursday and it took me till Saturday to finally forget about it.  That happened 2-3 times this month.  So hoping to clean that up in October.  If I can clean up that aspect then I will really be leveling up.

good work … i c u

[Soopafly DPGC]

It's been a good month.  My first good month since the mask mandates started in July 2020. 

I went all September without thinking about my plan to kill myself at the age of 50, or thinking everyone hates me, or without thinking about past mistakes, how and why I broke from family many years ago, and shit like that.

I had only a couple episodes where I'd had something bad happen to me in the day and it took me over 24 hours to forget about it.  That was the only negative for me in the month of September.  Like for example, let's say something bad happened to me on a Thursday and it took me till Saturday to finally forget about it.  That happened 2-3 times this month.  So hoping to clean that up in October.  If I can clean up that aspect then I will really be leveling up.

Good job homie.  Love the positivity, we need more of this in the world.  Keep doing what you're doing and remember you can only control yourself, can't control how other people see you or think of you, you'll work your fingers to the bone trying to change other people.  Once you come to the self-realization that you love yourself and are happy with yourself, and don't care what other's think, you'll reach a very blissful existence. 

[TraceOneInfinite]

Good job homie.  Love the positivity, we need more of this in the world.  Keep doing what you're doing and remember you can only control yourself, can't control how other people see you or think of you, you'll work your fingers to the bone trying to change other people.  Once you come to the self-realization that you love yourself and are happy with yourself, and don't care what other's think, you'll reach a very blissful existence.

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[ONETIME]

Yo Infinite ! What's good brother !

[TraceOneInfinite]

Yo Infinite ! What's good brother !

Yo Onetime !!! Ain’t you from the keystylin dayz of 2001 !! What’s good homie !! Jog my memory and tell me a good story from back then.

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And back to update the topic.  October is about done.  That will be two good months in a row in the books for me.  That’s a big deal for me after 4 years of not experiencing happiness. 

So it’s a big deal for me to log two good months in a row.  Hasn’t happened since Mayor Lucas imposed dystopian measures such as mask 😷 mandates on Kansas City summer of 2020.

Pray I keep it going into November and it’s likely as I gain momentum and coinciding with that is a world that’s healing itself and crescendoing this past week to Harry O speaking at Trumps rally and even Snoop throwing his support to Trump.  Trump victory and Chiefs 3-peat here we go baby !!!

That’s all the update for now.

[Sccit]

Yo Onetime !!! Ain’t you from the keystylin dayz of 2001 !! What’s good homie !! Jog my memory and tell me a good story from back then.

…………..

And back to update the topic.  October is about done.  That will be two good months in a row in the books for me.  That’s a big deal for me after 4 years of not experiencing happiness. 

So it’s a big deal for me to log two good months in a row.  Hasn’t happened since Mayor Lucas imposed dystopian measures such as mask 😷 mandates on Kansas City summer of 2020.

Pray I keep it going into November and it’s likely as I gain momentum and coinciding with that is a world that’s healing itself and crescendoing this past week to Harry O speaking at Trumps rally and even Snoop throwing his support to Trump.  Trump victory and Chiefs 3-peat here we go baby !!!

That’s all the update for now.

now imagine how happy you’d be if you were a Dodgers fan!

[Soopafly DPGC]

Yo Onetime !!! Ain’t you from the keystylin dayz of 2001 !! What’s good homie !! Jog my memory and tell me a good story from back then.

…………..

And back to update the topic.  October is about done.  That will be two good months in a row in the books for me.  That’s a big deal for me after 4 years of not experiencing happiness. 

So it’s a big deal for me to log two good months in a row.  Hasn’t happened since Mayor Lucas imposed dystopian measures such as mask 😷 mandates on Kansas City summer of 2020.

Pray I keep it going into November and it’s likely as I gain momentum and coinciding with that is a world that’s healing itself and crescendoing this past week to Harry O speaking at Trumps rally and even Snoop throwing his support to Trump.  Trump victory and Chiefs 3-peat here we go baby !!!

That’s all the update for now.

Good for you man.  I know it's hard but try not to keep track as much.  Just live each day as its own separate entity.  Categorizing months as good or bad and keeping track of how many good or bad months in a row you've had isn't constructive.  Once the day is over, it's history, wake up the next day and live like you've got a clean slate again. 

Proud of you homie, your coming out of the valley. 

[TraceOneInfinite]

Good for you man.  I know it's hard but try not to keep track as much.  Just live each day as its own separate entity.  Categorizing months as good or bad and keeping track of how many good or bad months in a row you've had isn't constructive.  Once the day is over, it's history, wake up the next day and live like you've got a clean slate again. 

Proud of you homie, your coming out of the valley.

A lot of alone time causes me to spend so much time categorizing and classifying everything—but yes, ideally I’m not sure—maybe it’s better to categorize and maybe not.

But I do remember even when I was a kid and happy like most kids I still used to classify like “this year was better than last” — that year was good, that year was bad, 5th grade was bad, 6th grade was good… so I don’t know maybe it’s okay either way.

Bottom line I’m celebrating two, full good months in the book—because thing is—there is such thing as “stored happiness”.  For example if you’ve been generally doing well for a period of time and then have a bad month it’s much easier to get thru because you have momentum, memories, and positivity to fall back on because you know things can get better.  But the reverse if you been down for a long time you might lose hope