my word and my future on this board

[mellowman]

goddamn i am sick of talking about myself. i can't believe that i am even responding, but enough is enough. i've been contemplating leaving this board ever since sept 11th. i have crossed the point of no return on allowing my posts to focus on me instead of the music. i take full responsibilty for this. even though i would much rather not, when someone calls me a liar behind my back i have to respond. when my word and my integrity is being questioned i can't sit back. i am so ready to get the focus and criticism off me and back on this board. and there is only one way for that to happen. this board is great but right now me being here takes away from its purpose. its been a great journey but i now know i am at the  end of the road.
since i’ve been on here quite often the last few weeks the number of people, threads and posts calling me a liar or attacking me personally have increased. it seems these few people are getting laughably desperate. a few days ago i was accused of getting or stealing my “the process of creating a dre track” from an old article in the source. that is hilarious. anyone who gets the same information on my post from that 2 year old article must be so sadly deperate to prove me wrong that they are reading things that aren't there. then today there was yet another thread  - yeah i saw it before it was removed - aimed specifically at me calling me a fake (in addition it attacked dre with the most thoughtless and unknowledgable comments i’ve ever heard someone use when dissing dre). this was because i mentioned that “dre would love to get sam sneed a production deal with aftermath but it probably wouldn’t happen anytime soon”. you can quote me on this phrase. somehow this person turned it into me saying dre and sam sneed had discussions. to my knowledge that has never happenned. then i was accused of lying because i dont answer every single question people ask me. with exception of the last 2 weeks, i usually visited this forum once or twice every 2 or 3 weeks. the reason i cant answer every question is because i dont see most questions. besideds that i get all kinds of private messages asking me questions. once again i apologize if i haven’t answered your questions. i just dont have time. do I know the exact address of the current location of the aftermath headquarters? no i don’t. oh no, you got me! you exposed me! but just so you know the interscope/aftermath offices have moved many times. right now the main office is in santa monica. i have never been there. dre couldn’t even give you the exact address cause he is rarely there. dre’s office and my office is whichever studio we are using on a certain date. i’m not a secretary or a staff worker. i am a musician. the only office i work in is a recording studio. the rest of them dont matter to me. but i’m done defending myself or even giving your words or questions any validity. it stops now. im so fuckin tired of talking about myself. i’m not at the point dre is where i can ignore every hater, doubter or critique. but leaving this board is the first step in trying to get to the point dre is, where i just ignore everyone who don’t mean anything to me. thats the main reason i wont be here after this week. the reason i am on this board is news, knowledge and a loyal support of dr. dre. i vowed when i started posting here over a year ago that as soon as it became about me instead of the music i was gone. now i am way past the point of being able to stop that. i take full blame of letting this happen. i’m sorry. i have two more threads about dre and 1 final thread to say goodbye. it would be easier to just disappear and never post again,  but i owe it to you guys to be a man and explain why i am leaving. there are too many people on this board who have been good to me. loyal people who i admire and respect very much. these posts and threads attacking me are just the words of  non believers who hopelessly and desperately want to expose me of lying to you. these people are accusing me of things on a public forum for everyone to see, crying out for attention, trying to be the one to expose me. these accusations are in affect calling me a liar. and when you call me a liar you are challenging my word. and when you challenge my word you challenge me as a man. yet these people calling me a liar dont have the heart, the balls or the courage to send me a private message and say that shit man to man, to my "virtual face". punk motherfuckin cowards like that will always be dreamers ,jeolous of others like me cause we are living the life they want to live, and living the dream they can never live. they cant see me, can't be me, and never will. if they would have been real men and sent me a private message i would have not liked what they said but i at least could respect them for doing it man to man, instead of doing it on a public forum, behind my back. some people spend so much time hating and worrying about others they lose their opportunity to accomplish their own goals and dreams. but you wont have to spend any more time worrying about me cause at the end of this week i will disappear. forever. i apologize to the 99% of this board that either support me or at least keep their doubts about me to themselves. i apologize that i lost my cool a bit, but i only have a few days and a few posts left and i dont want things to end on a bad note. i give you my word every thread and post is based on my experiences and the fact that i live this shit every day and have first hand knowledge of dre's genious cause i see and hear it almost every day. and if my word isn't good enough then there is nothing i can do. i don't know much in life outside loyalty, love for god and family and music.  but i do know the shit i talk about on this board. again i apologize for losing my cool a bit. peace.

[Big BpG]

Well... I guess this is good bye...

-Big BpG

[Don Jacob]

man mellow don't leave homie, you got more people here that support you than dislike you ALLLLLLLLLLLOT more. c'mon man keep bringing the GREAT news to us and ignore the critics, fake or not Mellow you're the best poster on this board

[Trauma-san]

Mellow, I've Talked To You In Private, And Honestly, I Don't Blame You.  It's Not Worth It Sometimes.  On One Hand, People Have No Respect, But On THe Other Hand, You Can't Expect Much From Them Because It's Just The Net, You Know.  The World's Became So Cynical That There's Always People Now That Doubt Every Little Thing Somebody Says Or Does.  People Can't Just Blindly Accept Stuff Anymore.  As Far As I'm Concerned, Somebody Could Tell Me on Here He Was The Pope John Paul And I'd Believe It, Because I'm Trying To Be More Open To People, And Less Cynical.

Anyways, My Point Is That If It's Becoming A Hassle To Post For Ya, And Your'e Getting Attacked, You Oughta Just Leave The Haters To Themselves.  TAke Some Time Away From Here, Hang Out With Your Family, And When You Get Some Free Time, Hit Us Back Up Again.  Good Luck

[=[Euthanasia]=]

Man, I cannot believe what i'm reading. It's a damn privilage having you here, supportings this board & sharing you knowledge with us an' now it's gonna stop? This shit sucks, although questions about you grow with every post you make it shouldn't of have to of come to this. I hope the haters that question you know that they're jus' ruined a good thing. You come here in your OWN time, you don't have to, no-ones forcing you but you take the time out anyways & I an' alot of other peeps here appreciate that man. I don't want you to leave homie, but if thats what u want & what u think is best for you then good luck.

[Murrow]

I liked to thank the people who made this happen...

[jay]

you re one of the poeple i liked in here

[Ant]

hey man i think you gotta look at it like this......

people doubt you cause or your status, i understand that its annoying and people are being ignorant but i think its more of a compliment than a diss to have people doubtin you... you said it yourself a lot of times, people doubt cause they are jealous...

i dunno if thats why people on here hate on you.. maybe its jealousy, but i think its more the fact that having someone associated with dre, who most of the board idolizes, come post on here is like too good to believe....

i mean if you were a 16 year old kid and someone started posting on a message board and said they were really michael jackson... id be having a damn hard time trying to believe it... i dont doubt you cause you brought a lot of news that came true and i really so no benefit to coming on here and posting long essays if your a fake just to get attention on an internet board... but i think most poeple just find you too good to be true... so dont take it so much as people hate ya its more just like i said ur too good to be true to some people....

anyways

peace

[mbn]

This board is just like real life.
People get status because of the qualities they have and people who aren't that succesful start burning the succesful people down.
I'm sorry mellowman that you find it necessary to quit the posting. Thank you for all the news and information. Good luck with the making music. (keep the hits coming to the fans).
Although it's hard to believe, the haters are probably all fans of what you help to create.

[Flurry]

well....goodbye, at least u have your health
good luck wid yo life
bye every1 i am going 2 hospital 2 b cut open soon bye bye

[Don Seer]

damn... ermm... why not just let stuff die down mellow.. fly by occasionally.. see how we're doin.

I don't have to sing like I did when flurry said she was going do I?

[ExZit]

shake the haters away!!

no body hates u (i think), there just ppl that dont know what to think about u,...u cant blame them for that...


stay!!

[cremedelaclem]

fuck the haters mellow...

i dont think you understand...a lot of the heads on this board NEED youre constant news updates and insights to keep us going.

[Lil Jay]

well homie you gave up dope some azz news but i understand those peeps who doubt you cause you can be who the fuck you want when you hide behind a screen  :-/

but thanx for posting... bye bye

[TheSheriff]

Dawg, I know what you go through here, honest I do. It hurts, no doubt, but the only person it should matter to as to whether or not it's true is you. If it's true, ignore the haters, they just bitches. YEAH, I SAID IT. Right now, there's maybe one person who knows all about my life who believes me IRL, completely. You got 99% of this board behind you dawg. You're a far better person than I, I would say, so I'm sure you can get through this shit.

But it's your choice; Remember, I ain't got nuttin but love for you, follow your heart. I can certainly respect the decision, and admire some of the reasoning. ((This is your "Off Death Row" dawg!!! ))

And...FUCK THA7TH, FUCK ALL THE REST OF Y'ALL HATERS...EAT A BIG, FAT DICK, I KNOW YOU LIKE TO...