It's September 14, 2024, 04:22:36 PM
Bro you didn't fool Skitt. He told me he knew you were a dude.Can you please post everything in one post like Infinite said. We don't need posts in every section of this webpage from you Mayne.
So I thought I was pregnant and started beating myself in the stomach now I'm thinking I'll birth the Devil spawn and set up another maggot for hell
It's gonna be hilariousThis little maggot being showered with luxuries by it's Devil fuck sperm donor and me suffering and then it thinks the world is it's oyster then it dies and wakes up in HellFuckin hilarious
This maggot is gonna be lied to its whole life by it's Devil sperm donor and associates and I'm gonna be delirious on the streets living the fucking truth while this maggot eats the fruit of my sufferingSucked in Devil maggotYou're going to hellI never agreed to this shit EVERYOU'RE SCUM FUCK SPERM DONOR DADDY IS A DEVILS SLAVE AND SO ARE YOU
I'm gonna keep beating this satanic spawn too until my tummy is back to flatFuck DEVILS
i’ve officially lost hope for u
Thanks for that SkitzoYou were never a real supporter anyway but once again I've prevailedI was unwell and given time recoveredI received some great news which completely changed my outlook and now you don't get to celebrate with me eating strawberry ice cream and salt n vinegar chips
that’s awesome but in one week you’ll be back on your bullshit because you still haven’t figured out how to let go of your evil thoughts maybe one day, but this recent one was one of your more disappointing outbursts
The whole cycle of schizophrenia is distressing to say the leastHaving an episode and everything seeming 100% real and the upheaval of thatThen the recovery period where you realise you damaged relationships based on false beliefs and having to accept that others aren't forgiving or understanding or educated about your illnessThen you feel momentary joy for a period of wellnessThen it's "back on your bullshit" as you so eloquently put it as another episode is inevitableIt's kinda like a bad trip that comes in cycles and never endsI'm still hearing voices about Dub C but don't feel so provoked to act on themThere is no cureIt's all about coping
yea there’s a cure the problem is you aren’t willing to accept that curethe first thing u need to do is REMIND AND CONSTANTLY TELLYOURSELF THAT ANY NEGATIVE FEELING OR THOUGHT THAT MAY CREEP UP ON YOU IS ROOTED IN LIES AND SHOULD BE DISREGARDED. and if you constantly are telling yourself this as opposed to feeling bad for yourself and making excuses, you’ll eventually grow out of it, slowly but surely. i promise. we all need to check ourselves regularly. some people more than others. believe that wit all your heart and you’ll see what i mean.
I'm actually doing that todayDespite the negative commentary in my mind I'm saying "No. I won't listen to this. I'm going to enjoy this good news and ignore all attempts to ruin my day" "I'm not going to focus on the negative dialogue. I'm not feeding into it." "This isn't real. Despite all the bullshit that happens. Despite the constant corruption. Despite the abuses. I'm going to try to fully enjoy my day and live in the moment rather than constantly live in anticipation of the next attack, the next episode, the next nightmare"That said, I don't get my hopes up very often. I've got evidence of abuse of both myself and possessions and I'm very adept at differentiating between reality and delusion given the opportunity. I'm at risk. This will always be a reality for me. If you're only going to support me when I'm positive then I don't need you.
u are what u thinkso when u say stuff like “this will always be a reality for me” you’re actually speaking that into existence start saying “i will get better, i will soon learn how to ignore these negative thoughts” and watch the difference it makes
So tells this all knowing SccitHow do I ignore it when I wake to chocolate buds under my water bottle and I don't eat chocolate?How do I ignore bleach stains in my panties?How do I ignore perfume that I've worm for years all of a sudden smelling like disinfectant?How do I ignore belongings going missing?Clothes being altered?Stains on clothing I've never stained?Pubic hairs in my food?How did I speak that into existence?